Jamie Cook dating

Jamie Cook’s Girlfriend. Jamie Cook is single. He is not dating anyone currently. Jamie had at least 1 relationship in the past. Jamie Cook has not been previously engaged. He was raised in Sheffield, England. He and Katie Downes, a model, became engaged in 2012 after dating for six years. The two married in 2014. A post shared by Katie Cook (@katiee_cook_) on Aug 8, 2019 at 10:15am PDT The pair began dating in 2006, married in 2014 and had their first child - a son named Forrest, in 2015. Summary: Jamielee Cook is 30 years old and was born on 06/07/1990. Previous to Jamielee's current city of Manassas, VA, Jamielee Cook lived in Gainesville VA. In the past, Jamielee has also been known as Jamie Cook and Jamielee A Cook. Jamie Robert Cook has had no other relationships that we know of. About. Jamie Robert Cook is a 35 year old English Guitarist. Born on 8th July, 1985 in Sheffield, England, UK, he is famous for Arctic Monkeys. His zodiac sign is Cancer. Jamie Robert Cook is a member of the following lists: 1985 births, English rock guitarists and People from ... On 8-7-1985 Jamie Cook (nickname: Jamie) was born in West Kirby, Wirral, United Kingdom. He made his 1.3 million dollar fortune with Arctic Monkeys. The musician is married to , his starsign is Cancer and he is now 35 years of age. SO Jamie, what first attracted you to ample-bosomed, millionairess glamour model Katie Downes..? Arctic Monkey guitarist Jamie Cook has been secretly dating Katie who lives in a £1million luxury apartment in Liverpool and has made a fortune getting her kit off for magazines and newspapers. Jamie Cook of the Arctic Monkeys is currently dating Katie Downes. She is a Page 3 girl for British magazines.

Any date scenes you think worth the gems? (No bias!)

2020.09.26 02:51 BBLogan Any date scenes you think worth the gems? (No bias!)

I always spend gems on 2-3 of my main guys only, and it’s only on date scenes. But for some guys that’s not my main but I think it’ll get steamy I’ll also paid.
So let’s share the scenes you think worth spending our precious gems on!
These are the lists on scenes I spent on : - Albert > 1st date ** - Jamie > Hacking room - Adam > 1st date , 2nd date - Ryan > Cooking class & Make out on the couch - Skylar > Pool scene - Sam > Frat party
** that Albert 1st date totally worth it for me. Lol
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2020.09.03 22:09 LogicalLarynx Crawlr 2.0: Like Tinder, but for DnD (Again)

Like Tinder, but for DnD? We kinda made something like that already
Thanks to this post from over a year ago, Crawlr exploded. Without the help of everyone on this subreddit, as well as the TTRPG community as a whole, we never would have been able to come out with Crawlr 2.0 today!
For the past year, we've taken every suggestion you all have given us to heart and built this new site based on the needs of the community. We have no plans of stopping!
Sincerely, thank you all for your continued support and interest. Now, onto all the fun stuff!
https://preview.redd.it/h8g3opjxjzk51.png?width=2048&format=png&auto=webp&s=378d48667b7ca898341624751a3b176ac1c41a0b
We look a just a little bit different from before, huh?
2.0 introduces a number of new and requested features alongside tweaks to existing features.

Rebranding

We’re thrilled to unveil our new logo and site interface. Many of you commented that the previous design was too colorful and low contrast — we agree!
Oh, we’re now ~fancy and go by all caps so that you know we mean business… or something.

Revamped Search Functionality

We addressed a few large requests.

New Pages

Navigation Menu Reorganization

The new navigation menus feature larger text and more streamlined options. It’s also more navigable for users with only a keyboard.

Revised Group Sorting System

The former Group sorting system was extremely limited, and, honestly, useless. We’ve updated the Categories system. You’ll need to manually input these changes to your existing groups, should you so choose.

REVISED CATEGORIES

REVISED TAGS

Expanded Profile Details + Tagging System

Many of you requested more ways to show your individuality and needs when it comes to finding a group. 2.0 delivers on this in spades.
Your user profile now offers five customizable tabs: About; Personal Details; Game Library; Game Environment; and Sensitive Topics. All but the primary About tab are optional (your profile section is also wider, too!).
Many of them incorporate a new user tagging system. This helps key information be more quickly identifiable so that there are less comma-separated lists.

MINOR ADDITIONS TO PROFILE HEADER

ABOUT

You’re familiar with this tab from the previous version, but we’ve streamlined its organization so that you can better highlight who you are as a player.

PERSONAL DETAILS

This new tab makes room for details about yourself that extend beyond your tabletop interests.

GAME LIBRARY

You might not want to list EVERY game you have on the about section to keep it from being un-cluttered, but we did want to provide an optional area under Game Library.

GAME ENVIRONMENT

Whether you’re playing online or in-person, you likely have musts and must nots about the gameplay environment.

SENSITIVE TOPICS

This tab is likely most relevant to our roleplaying gamers, but we recommend non-RPG tabletop members also review it. Here, you can express your willingness (or unwillingness) to interact with commonly sensitive topics, such as sexual assault, racism or gore.
The form uses the stoplight system; green equals good to go, yellow indicates pre-emptive discussion is needed and red draws a hard line not to cross.
For privacy from the general user pool, only you and your friends may view this tab.
The topics and formatting here were provided by Monte Cook Games. Their site offers a free, downloadable and editable version of this form.

What’s Been Removed

This is a long changelog, but we wanted to fill you in on all the changes!
If there’s anything you would like to see added or updated, please reach out to us at [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]).
Thanks for hanging in there with us!
Extra special thanks to our Patreon supporters at the time of this post:
Gregory R., Justin L., JohnFizzy, Christopher G., Vasily K., Alex N., Christopher P., Brock L., Morgs R., Kayla F., Courtney K., Scruffi, Mathew R., Jason B., Jacob H., Felicia M., Bobby G., Kate-Alice K., Sam, Justin G., Jamie D., and Phillip T.H.
If you’d like to help us keep doing our thing + grow even more, please consider supporting us. https://www.patreon.com/crawlr
xo – Jackie
PS – Merch store is getting its makeover later this week.
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2020.09.03 21:19 LogicalLarynx CRAWLR 2.0: A Leap Forward for LFG

CRAWLR 2.0: A Leap Forward for LFG

CRAWLR 2.0: A Leap Forward for LFG

Like Tinder, but for DnD...and TTRPGs...and tabletop in general.
Crawlr.app is here with a brand new update! We need people to come by, test it out, and give us some feedback so that we can make it even better!
Dope new logo, right? It took us this long to figure out D20 + Location Marker.
We look a just a little bit different from before, huh?
2.0 introduces a number of new and requested features alongside tweaks to existing features.

Rebranding

We’re thrilled to unveil our new logo and site interface. Many of you commented that the previous design was too colorful and low contrast — we agree!
  • Increased contrast by using classic white and black.
  • Introduced a dark mode toggle.
  • Revised the logo to be more understandable and ownable.
Oh, we’re now ~fancy and go by all caps so that you know we mean business… or something.

Revamped Search Functionality

We addressed a few large requests.
  • Local Search: Members can now use an interactive map to find relevant players in their area without having to input cities or zip codes one at a time. Results will update as you drag your cursor around the map.
  • Time Zone Search: This allows you to find non-local players that would be able to play games according to your schedule.
  • Sort results by newest users or last login.

New Pages

  • Get Started – This guide is tailored for CRAWLR newcomers.
  • Our Beliefs – We outline the three key pillars that motivate us.
  • How It Works – An overview for non-registered users who are curious what the site does.

Navigation Menu Reorganization

The new navigation menus feature larger text and more streamlined options. It’s also more navigable for users with only a keyboard.

Revised Group Sorting System

The former Group sorting system was extremely limited, and, honestly, useless. We’ve updated the Categories system. You’ll need to manually input these changes to your existing groups, should you so choose.
REVISED CATEGORIES
  • DM/GM Seeking Players notes that you have an adventure lined up and you’re looking for players to join you.
  • Players Seeking a DM/GM is the inverse of the above. If you’re a party who needs a leader, use this category!
  • Looking for Tabletop Group (Non-RPG) allows for easier searching of groups of people who want to group up together to play non-RPG games.
  • Group Chat is just that — a Group Chat. You’ll likely want to use this for Private or Hidden chats meant for only you and your friends.
  • Just for Fun is self-explanatory. Likely best for Public groups.
REVISED TAGS
  • Game genres are listed here so that you can pair them with the appropriate category. For example, you might be seeking or creating a non-RPG tabletop group interested in Lovecraftian games.

Expanded Profile Details + Tagging System

Many of you requested more ways to show your individuality and needs when it comes to finding a group. 2.0 delivers on this in spades.
Your user profile now offers five customizable tabs: About; Personal Details; Game Library; Game Environment; and Sensitive Topics. All but the primary About tab are optional (your profile section is also wider, too!).
Many of them incorporate a new user tagging system. This helps key information be more quickly identifiable so that there are less comma-separated lists.

MINOR ADDITIONS TO PROFILE HEADER

  • Online dot will appear next to users who are currently active.
  • Age, time zone, location and last login appear under your nickname.
  • You have the option to select an image from Unsplash when updating your header photo.

ABOUT

You’re familiar with this tab from the previous version, but we’ve streamlined its organization so that you can better highlight who you are as a player.
  • You can add a Nickname that defines you across the site versus relying solely on your Username.
  • Date of Birth is now required. You won’t be able to see users’ specific birth dates, but their age will show up in search results and on their profile.
  • Added in editions to common RPG systems. You can still select just the main title of the series if you want to show up in results for any edition.
  • Experience Level was simplified.
  • Preferred Game Genres is a new field that speaks for itself.
  • Play Style is a new field to help users understand what attitude you would bring to the table.
  • Availability (Days and Hours) lets you list your general availability.
  • Time Zone and Location were both rolled out late in 1.0, and they’re now required fields.

PERSONAL DETAILS

This new tab makes room for details about yourself that extend beyond your tabletop interests.
  • The “More About Me” field fulfills a common request to add broad callouts for LGBTQ+ members, members of color, and/or those who are neurodivergent (such as being autistic). Many other tags are available!
  • Additionally, there are two private sections for Sexuality and Gender, and Race. Only you and your friends can view these fields. More information is listed above the “edit” field on this tab.
  • Users can explain why they’re on the site and link out to social media or other websites.

GAME LIBRARY

You might not want to list EVERY game you have on the about section to keep it from being un-cluttered, but we did want to provide an optional area under Game Library.
  • This new section allows you to input all of your games. Titles listed here will also enable you to show up in searches IF a user manually types it into the search box. This is to keep it so you’re only showing up in common searches if you’re serious about playing that game with others at this time.
  • You can link out to a digital game library, if you keep one updated. These links do NOT populate those titles into our search index.

GAME ENVIRONMENT

Whether you’re playing online or in-person, you likely have musts and must nots about the gameplay environment.
  • The top text area lets you expand upon your responses in the form beneath it.
  • A number of commonly divisive subjects that can come into play are pre-populated. For example, you could click “Not Allowed” under “Alcohol” to indicate that you do not want to attend a session where others are drinking.
  • Additionally, there are fields that help you list any physical space requirements you may have, such as being near public transport or ensuring the game area is wheelchair accessible.

SENSITIVE TOPICS

This tab is likely most relevant to our roleplaying gamers, but we recommend non-RPG tabletop members also review it. Here, you can express your willingness (or unwillingness) to interact with commonly sensitive topics, such as sexual assault, racism or gore.
The form uses the stoplight system; green equals good to go, yellow indicates pre-emptive discussion is needed and red draws a hard line not to cross.
For privacy from the general user pool, only you and your friends may view this tab.
The topics and formatting here were provided by Monte Cook Games. Their site offers a free, downloadable and editable version of this form.

What’s Been Removed

  • Forums. Its capabilities were restrictive and therefore mostly unused. We did not have the resources to actively monitor threads, so we opted to ax this feature in favor of focusing efforts elsewhere.
  • The billion little location fields that still kept the search limited. We’re sure you’re heartbroken about this one.
This is a long changelog, but we wanted to fill you in on all the changes!
If there’s anything you would like to see added or updated, please reach out to us at [email protected].
Thanks for hanging in there with us!
Extra special thanks to our Patreon supporters at the time of this post:
Gregory R., Justin L., JohnFizzy, Christopher G., Vasily K., Alex N., Christopher P., Brock L., Morgs R., Kayla F., Courtney K., Scruffi, Mathew R., Jason B., Jacob H., Felicia M., Bobby G., Kate-Alice K., Sam, Justin G., Jamie D., and Phillip T.H.
If you’d like to help us keep doing our thing + grow even more, please consider supporting us. https://www.patreon.com/crawlr
xo – Jackie
PS – Merch store is getting its makeover later this week.
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2020.08.31 08:33 JimmieJ48fan Reddit Winston Cup Series Fantasy League Week 27-Darlington (9-6 6pm)

Rules
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1SqUqWka6Dn_2mTGhcuLB1kh6yb7l4o0Zm2uxdONGQEs/edit?usp=sharing
 
Standings after Week 26
 
Rank +/- Driver Points Behind Wins Plof Pts Winnings
1 -- JTodd14" # + 2039 Leader 3 39 $5,397,806
2 +2 JR-TV" + 2037 -2 3 37 $5,833,975
3 -- Mike1494* + 2035 -4 3 35 $4,887,121
4 +1 DaltonTG" # + 2032 -7 3 32 $4,552,328
5 -3 Cherrypoptart* + 2027 -12 2 27 $4,628,443
6 -- carpetbeggar" # + 2027 -12 2 27 $4,849,652
7 -- laserviper* + 2027 -12 3 27 $5,190,058
8 +7 SamsungGearS2* + 2023 -16 3 23 $4,701,792
9 +7 JamieMcMurray26* + 2023 -16 3 23 $4,683,153
10 +7 Rowdy54* + 2021 -18 2 21 $4,576,579
11 -1 JJohnson48fan* + 2020 -19 2 20 $5,566,164
12 +1 Maddi10* + 2020 -19 2 20 $6,030,076
13 -5 CaptainBert" + 2019 -20 1 19 $5,514,496
14 -- BriceRomero28" + 2018 -21 2 18 $4,480,490
15 +3 KJH278* + 2012 -27 1 12 $4,518,350
16 +5 MoneyMike" # + 2012 -27 2 12 $3,677,430
17 -8 hgimn* 1851 -188 0 15 $4,614,067
18 -6 justbo-lieve" 1777 -262 0 7 $4,694,922
19 -8 awehr1991^ # 1748 -291 0 13 $4,752,356
20 -1 decooker11" # 1627 -412 1 14 $4,216,382
21 -1 GTA1984* 1591 -448 0 5 $4,086,443
22 -- Slumerican" 1526 -513 0 2 $4,184,328
23 -- BAM_Racing" 1369 -670 0 1 $3,976,989
24 -- KEMxxG" 281 -1758 0 0 $775,280
25 -- Monahan8847" 199 -1840 1 5 $604,172
26 -- Natefalcons24" # 0 -2039 0 0 $0
"#" = Rookie
"+" = Clinched Playoff Position
 
Points Spreadsheet
https://docs.zoho.com/sheet/published.do?rid=blojt1e7ee9b19b544ed4aba7378d7f9e0b0d&mode=html
 
Results
https://docs.zoho.com/sheet/published.do?rid=blojt017656f19b764b3e821fae2acfe31ffa&mode=html
 
Manufacturer Standings after Week 26
On the Manufacturer tab of the Points link above
 
ROTY Standings after Week 26
On the ROTY tab of the Points link above
 
QUALIFYING DATE AND TIME
 
N/A
 
NEXT WEEK, SUNDAY SEPTEMBER 6th at 6:00 PM EDT
 
Darlington Raceway. . . . . . . . . . . . . . Cook Out Southern 500
 
PICKED RACE WINNER
 
JR-TV and justbo-lieve
 
Poles Won (AKA: Highest Average Starting Position of Picks)
 
JTodd14-2
 
Maddi10-1
hgimn-1
Monahan8847-1
 
Races Won (AKA: Scored most points during a week)
 
laserviper-3
Mike1494-3
JTodd14-3
SamsungGearS2-3
DaltonTG-3
JamieMcMurray26-3
*JR-TV-3
 
Maddi10-2
MoneyMike-2
BriceRomero28-2
carpetbeggar-2
Rowdy54-2
JJohnson48fan-2
Cherrypoptart-2
 
KJH278-1
Monahan8847-1
Decooker11-1
CaptainBert-1
 
BACKUPS
https://docs.zoho.com/sheet/published.do?rid=drewka76e49f95e3d4f35b3599285786fa31f&mode=html
Used This Week: awehr1991, BAM_Racing, BriceRomero28, Cherrypoptart, DaltonTG, Decooker11, GTA1984, JamieMcMurray26, KJH278, and Mike1494
 
Playoff Grid
https://docs.zoho.com/sheet/published.do?rid=j3bjzbb5e606ce3554f8eb1fc5e9cb94ed064&mode=html
 
Clinched Playoff Position This Weekend
BriceRomero28, Rowdy54, MoneyMike, CaptainBert, and KJH278
 
Note: You can check out the points before the reset on the no playoffs tab. Also on there in the playoff points column you can see the regular season top 10 playoff points earned. Congrats to JTodd14 on the regular season championship.
Also since this is the throwback weekend. If you would like to pick a throwback sponsor on the spreadsheet for this weekend you may do that.
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2020.08.10 17:40 pfracassi I think my treehouse is haunted - Part Three: The sleepover

PART ONE
PART TWO

After the incident with the bleeding man, I tried my best to forget about the whole thing. About the girl and the treehouse and what might have happened there.
But I couldn’t let it go. And after a few days, when the events of that night sort of dimmed and became less frightening to think about, I started to get more and more curious about what, exactly, had happened to the girl. I asked a few of my neighbor friends, but they all sorta shrugged and said they didn’t know, and obviously didn’t care. But I kept it up, asking whenever I thought it would seem natural and not like I was obsessed with it or something. I even asked a few teachers about it, and the postwoman when she dropped off a package one morning for my mom. But the adults seemed to know even less than the kids, and were a lot more reluctant to chat with me about it.
As it turned out, it was my neighbor’s mom who finally caved and told me what happened to the family who lived in our house before we moved in.
Honestly, it wasn’t that hard to get her going. Apparently “everybody” knew but nobody liked to discuss it. She said it wasn’t polite. That it scared people. Which makes more sense after you know what happened.
Because it’s horrible.
Okay, so one night, Jamie, who lives three houses down and has sort of become my default best friend in the neighborhood, invited me over for pizza, movie, and a sleepover. My mom seemed pretty excited about the idea of having a night to herself, which didn’t bother me in the slightest. If I had to make me dinner and bug me about taking a bath and doing homework and going to bed every day I’d want a break too.
“Was awful what happened there,” Jamie’s mom said while filling our milk glasses. She was sort of the exact opposite of Jamie, who was tall and skinny with black hair and brown eyes. His mom was short and had a big bowl of blonde hair on her head. I found myself staring at her bright pink fingernails while she poured my milk. I’d never even met Jamie’s dad. “I mean, it’s a beautiful home, and you guys will be happy there, no doubt. But, geez, the people who lived there before you?” She shook her head and pursed her lips, which were bright red. “Did not end well.”
I pretended to be enjoying my pizza when, in fact, I was really just doing my best to simply gag it down. My throat felt like it was closing and my face got kinda hot when she started talking.
She’s going to tell me, I thought, and the idea of finally knowing was both exhilarating and terrifying. I could feel myself sweating as she talked, and hoped she or Jamie didn’t notice that I was having an anxiety attack or whatever.
“I’ve heard a few things,” I said, and took a long sip of milk. “But wasn’t sure if it was real or not. I didn’t want to ask Mom about it because I was afraid she’d feel bad.”
Part of this was a lie. I hadn’t heard anything about anything. Obviously, there must be something wrong with the house. Something happened, and I just couldn’t contain my curiosity. Seeing a ghost, I’ve learned, makes a person question all sorts of things.
“Well, that’s considerate,” she said, and sat down at the table with us, nibbled at the end of her lone slice of cheese pizza. “And I don’t want to, you know, speak out of school or anything. I mean, are you sure you want to know this stuff? It might freak you out.”
Jamie looked at me with wide eyes, and I wondered which one of us it would freak out more. As for me, I’d seen some insane stuff already. Stories weren’t going to make it any worse, but they might explain some things.
“No, it won’t bother me. I don’t scare easy.” I wasn’t sure if this was true or not, but part of me hoped it was. Then, of course, I remembered the bleeding man crawling toward the girl - moving like a giant spider as she started to scream, the spill of warmth in my pants as I pissed myself...
“Okay,” she said. “Well, no need to go into all the gory details. And I’m sure your mother is well aware of the basics, as they probably told her before she bought the place. It’s the law or something.”
I nodded along, not fully knowing what she was talking about, and getting the sense that Jamie’s mom wasn’t, as my dad used to say, “the brightest bulb.”
“So, first of all, you should know this happened a while ago. That house sat empty, God, for at least three years. Which is crazy in this neighborhood, but it was tied up in legal mumbo-jumbo for a while, and then was purchased by a bank and renovated, which is why you have the nice floors and those new appliances.”
I kept nodding, hoping she’d get back to the stuff I cared about. Jamie was finished with his pizza and was studying his phone, so I had the feeling time was short before he demanded more movie and less dinner conversation with his mom. “But someone lived there before us,” I said gently. Prodding.
“Oh yes honey, of course. And, well, that’s the thing. See, the people that lived there... gosh, I don’t know if I should be telling you this.”
She looked at her son, saw his attention was diverted, and shrugged. Maybe giving me nightmares was okay if it meant spilling local gossip, but I don’t think she wanted to deal with Jamie screaming in the night.
“Look, first of all, you need to understand that this is a very, very safe neighborhood. And that what happened, my gosh, was a total anomaly. You know what that means?”
I nodded. I had no idea.
“Right. Well, there’s no sugar-coating it. One night there was a break-in. A burglary, you know? An intruder.”
The word “intruder” conjured up an image that raised the hairs on the back of my neck, the image of the man in the corner of the treehouse, breathing heavy, covered in blood and sweaty, holding his torn guts.
I set down my pizza, but met her eyes, willing her to continue. I needed to know.
“I’m sorry to say, but the man - this intruder - he, okay, he killed the people in that house. But remember,” she added hurriedly, “this was many years ago. We had just moved in, hardly knew a soul. Hadn’t even met the woman.”
“Woman?” I asked, intrigued despite the crawling dread in my stomach.
“Yes honey. A woman and her little girl.” She leaned closer to me, as if we were in public and she didn’t want to be overheard. As if saying something quietly makes it less true, less horrible. “They’d been strangled.”
I tried to swallow but couldn’t do it. I noticed my hand was trembling and tucked it into my lap beneath the table. “The little girl, too? She was...”
Jamie’s mom nodded.
“Horrible,” she said.
And it was.
“Where did they die?” I asked, realizing I’d unconsciously matched her strained whisper.
Jamie, meanwhile, had stopped playing with his phone and was staring at his mom as if she was telling me about the end of the world, letting me in on a hot tip that it was coming in just a few days. He looked plenty scared, and I hoped his mother wouldn’t notice. Not yet.
She looked away, as if debating whether to answer me. I pressed the issue.
“Did the little girl die in the treehouse?”
Her head jerked back to me, her eyes shining with what I could only describe as anger*.* Like I’d insulted her cooking, or her looks. Or her kid. She was angry, but I think she was also afraid*.* Yeah, looking back on it, I’m almost sure of it.
“How...”
Then she shook her head, her face reddening. I knew it was all the information I was going to get. But it was enough.
More than enough.
“Dinner’s over,” she said, and then just stood up and left the room.
At least now I knew, knew for sure, what happened back then. And why the ghost of the little girl was trapped in that treehouse, reliving the same night over and over.
With me as her sole audience.
 
 
Later that night, I convinced Jamie to let me use his computer, and together we looked up stuff on ghosts and haunting spirits. It was actually Jamie who found the information that proved most useful, buried deep within a website devoted to hauntings around the world.
I had never told him what happened to me, or what I’d seen. I think some part of him knew - had pieced it together from my questions and our following information dive for hauntings - but he never asked. I don’t think he really wanted to know what I’d experienced.
I didn’t blame him.
“It says here that some ghosts are forced to relive their deaths over and over again, for eternity,” he said, reading off the screen. “Like an old film replaying a traumatic event from the past.”
“Let me see,” I said, and read the passage he was referring to. There was a bold section break that read PSYCHIC IMPRINTS. I scanned the paragraph below it quickly, getting excited. It made perfect sense, and fell into line with what I’d seen. Unlike many of the other described hauntings, my ghost wasn’t interacting with me. It was just doing whatever it had been doing that night.
So why was I seeing the bleeding man? Was that part of some sort of show the little girl was putting on for me? To let me see for myself what had happened?
To see if I could do anything about it?
“I wonder if there’s a way to help them,” I said, scrolling further down the page, desperate for answers. “If there some way to, I don’t know, release them.”
Jamie spun off his chair and flopped down onto his bed. He gripped a pillow to his chest and faced the wall. “I don’t know dude, but I don’t want to talk about this shit anymore. It’s stupid.”
By stupid, he of course meant scary. And it was, but I felt like I was finally getting somewhere. I wanted to help that little girl. Free her.
But how?
While Jamie had his back turned, I googled one more thing before shutting the topic down for the night.
I typed my street address, city and state. Then I typed the word MURDER.
I got multiple hits.
One was a local news page that had a two-paragraph article and a photo of a woman hugging a small girl.
I recognized her instantly.
My skin tingled unpleasantly, as if I’d been lightly touched by someone I couldn’t see, or was suddenly covered in baby spiders.
Scrolling down, I passed by a few links that had nothing to do with my house at all. Then I saw a link to the city’s homicide department website. I clicked on it, and it brought up the same incident the news article had, but it was more technical, like a crime report.
They were asking people to come forward who had information on the murders of the woman and her daughter. There was a form you could fill out to respond.
The page was old. Dated almost four years ago. But it was still active. They hadn’t taken it down. They were still looking for information.
They were still hunting the killer.
PART FOUR
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2020.07.30 16:36 Soul_Man2004 Photographers

An editing base for David Bowie's photographers.
The original was removed by bots so I'm using my profile instead. Don't think I'll be able to put it anywhere else. Will try putting in it in the sub when I reach a stopping point.
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2020.07.25 08:44 oldenuff2know Nurturing a new generation of HSPs

Hi all,
I saw this today in relation to the remote vs in class education decisions many areas are making now. When I read it, my first thought was that it almost seemed geared toward younger HSPs. Makes me wonder if in a few years we'll see more people who are comfortable and happy in their HSP selves because they weren't forced to fight against it from a young age. I originally saw this as a poster and apologize that I can't find it to link here! The text is truly what counts though!
Should school boards or states cancel the rest of the school year, students could miss five to six months of formal schooling before possibly resuming in August. Many people are concerned about students falling behind because of the stay-at-home order. Yes, they may fall behind when it comes to classroom education, but…
What if instead of falling “behind,” these kids are actually “advanced” because of this? Hear me out.
What if they have more empathy, enjoy family connection, can be more creative and entertain themselves, love to read, or love to express themselves in writing.
What if they enjoy the simple things, like their own backyard and sitting near a window in the quiet.
What if they notice the birds and the dates the different flowers emerge, and the calming renewal of a gentle rain shower?
What if kids of this generation are the ones to learn to cook, organize their space, do their laundry, and keep a well-run home?
What if they learn to stretch a dollar and to live with less?
What if they learn to plan shopping trips and meals at home?
What if they learn the value of eating as a family, or finding the good to share in the small delights of “the everyday?”
What if they are the ones to place great value on our teachers and educational professionals, librarians, public servants… and the previously invisible essential support workers like truck drivers, grocers, cashiers, custodians, logistics, and health care workers and their supporting staff… and the millions of others taking care of us right now while we are sheltered in place?
What if among these children, a great leader emerges who had the benefit of a slower pace and a simpler life to truly learn what really matters in this life?
What if they are really ahead?
attributed to Jamie Ragsdale of Altogether Mostly
edit: to complete the viral post as written and provide attribution
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2020.07.19 07:15 norcalgirl1822 By The Numbers- Age at first child vs. second child

Unfortunately, not all of the Moms or their second child's dates of birth are available. I've learned from my previous "by the number" research that it's best not to guess because MTV did lie about some of their ages. So, I'm going to work off of only the ones I can verify. If i can verify the second child's birth within a month or so, and I have the mom's birth date, I will include that.
This is part 5 of the series. I'll link my others below and there's a breakdown at the bottom.
Number of Children and Baby Daddies- will update as my next post
Age Gaps and High School Graduations
Age at Conception and Birth of First Child
Where in the USA are the girls from?
Name Age at Birth of First Child Age at Birth of Second Child Gap Between First and Second Child
SEASON 1
Maci Bookout 17 years, 2 months 23 years, 9 months 6 years, 7 months
Farrah Abraham 17 years, 9 months N/A N/A
Amber Portwood 18 years, 6 months 27 years, 11 months 9 years, 5 months
Ebony Jackson 17 years, 11 months 20 years, 1 month (child passed away) 2 years, 2 months
Whitney Purvis 17 years, 4 months 22 years, 10 months 5 years, 6 months
Catelynn Lowell 17 years, 2 months 22 years, 10 months 5 years, 8 months
SEASON 2
Jenelle Evans 17 years, 8 months 22 years, 6 months 4 years, 10 months
Nikkole Paulun 16 years, 1 month 21 years, 9 months 5 years, 8 months
Valerie Fairman 15 years, 11 months N/A N/A
Chelsea Houska 18 years, 9 days 25 years, 5 months 7 years, 5 months
Lori Wickelhaus 18 years, 11 months 22 years, 9 months 3 years, 10 months
Samantha Hernandez 17 years, 4 months N/A N/A
Nicole Fokos 15 years, 5 months 21 years, 7 months 6 years, 2 months
Leah Messer 17 years, 7 months 20 years, 10 months 3 years, 3 months
Lizzie Waller 17 years, 10 months 26 years, 3 months 8 years, 5 months
Kailyn Lowry 17 years, 10 months 21 years, 8 months 3 years, 10 months
Brooke Smitherman 17 years, 10 months 19 years, 9 months 2 years, 11 months
Felicia Cooke 17 years, 2 months 21 years, 5 months 4 years, 3 months
Emily McKenzie 16 years, 6 months N/A N/A
Markai Durham 17 years, 10 months 26 years, 7 months 8 years, 9 months
Aubrey Woltors 17 years, 7 months 21 years, 7 months 4 years
Christinna Cook DOB unavailable - -
Kayla Jordan 17 years, 1 month 22 years, 7 months 5 years, 6 months
Megan McConnell 16 years, 8 months 21 years, 11 months 5 years, 3 months
Ashley Salazar 18 years, 15 days 25 years, 1 month 7 years, 2 weeks
SEASON 3
Jordan Ward 17 years. 5 months 18 years, 9 months 1 year, 4 months
Jennifer Del Rio 16 years, 11 months 20 years, 6 months 3 years, 5 months
Jamie McKay 17 years, 2 months 21 years, 2 months 4 years
Danielle Cunningham 16 years, 9 months 18 years, 5 months 2 years, 8 months
Cleondra Carter 17 years, 5 months 22 years, 1 month 4 years, 7 months
Kayla Jackson 17 years, 8 months 23 years, 4 months 5 years, 8 months
Izabella Tovar 15 years, 6 months 19 years, 8 months 4 years, 2 months
Kianna Randall 17 years, 4 months N/A N/A
Taylor Lumas 15 years, 3 months 24 years 8 years, 10 months
Allie Mendoza 17 years, 2 months 21 years, 11 months 4 years, 9 months
SEASON 4
Mackenzie Douthit 16 years, 11 months 19 years, 4 months 2 years, 5 months
Katie Yeager 18 years, 10 days 23 years, 9 months 5 years, 9 months
Briana DeJesus 17 years, 4 months 23 years, 2 months 5 years, 10 months
Lindsey Nicholson 17 years, 2 months 23 years, 2 months 6 years
Alex Sekella 17 years, 7 months N/A N/A
Jordan Howard 17 years, 7 months 20 years, 4 months 3 years, 10 months
Myranda Trevino 17 years, 1 month 19 years, 8 months 2 years, 7 months
Hope Harbert 18 years, 1 month 23 years, 9 months 5 years, 8 months
Sarah Roberts 17 years, 2 months 19 years, 6 months 2 years, 4 months
Sabrina Solares 17 years, 4 months N/A N/A
Devon Broyles 17 years, 4 months 20 years, 11 months 3 years, 8 months
Kristina Robinson 18 years, 9 months 20 years 1 year, 4 months
SEASON 5
Maddy Godsey DOB Unavailable - -
Autumn Crittendon 18 years, 10 months N/A N/A
Milina Kacmar 18 years, 2 months 22 years, 2 months 4 years
Ariana Hazel DOB Unavailable - -
Summer Rewis DOB Unavailable - -
Karley Shipley DOB Unavailable - -
Aleah LeBeouf 18 years, 9 months 22 years, 9 months 4 years
Jazmin Young DOB Unavailable - -
Savon Looney DOB Unavailable - -
Jordan Cashmyer 18 years, 10 months N/A N/A
Courtney Ames DOB Unavailable - -
Savannah Mooney DOB Unavailable - -
YOUNG & PREGNANT
Jade Cline 20 years, 3 months N/A N/A
Ashley Jones 20 years, 6 months N/A N/A
Lexi Tatman 17 years, 11 months 19 years, 9 months 1 year, 10 months
Brianna Jamarillo 17 years, 8 months N/A N/A
Kayla Sessler 18 years, 10 months 20 years, 9 months 1 year, 10 months
Kiaya Elliott 18 years, 6 months N/A N/A
Rachel Beaver 17 years, 10 months N/A N/A
So, let's break this down.
-Most of the girls were 17 when they gave birth the first time. A few were 15, 16 or 18, as well. That data can be found above in another post I did. Two girls were 20, but they were on young and pregnant- not 16 and pregnant.
We’re working with data from 43 girls. 66 were featured, but 23 either only have one child or don't have verifiable birthdates. I am not including miscarriages, only live births.
-Season 3’s Jordan Ward and Season 4's Kristina gave birth the fastest; only 1 year and four months after having her first.
-Jordan Ward from Season 3 was pregnant at the reunion taping. Apparently, they had cast her and a few others for Teen Mom 3, but pulled taping due to her pregnancy (they didn't want to show someone having a second baby that fast) so that is why the Teen Mom 3 girls are actually from Season 4 of 16 and pregnant.
-Amber went the longest of the TM OG girls and overall, at nearly 9 and half years between Leah and James. Chelsea was the last Teen Mom 2 cast member to have a second child.
-21 and 22 are the most common ages for the girls to have their second child. 4-6 years is the most common age gap between first and second children.
Number of girls that had their second child at:
18- 2 (4%)
19- 6 (14%)
20- 7 (16%)
21- 8 (19%)
22- 8 (19%)
23- 6 (14%)
24- 1 (2%)
25- 2 (4%)
26- 2 (4%)
27- 1 (2%)
So how big was the gap between the girls' first and second children?
1-2 years: 4 (9%)
2-3 years: 6 (14%)
3-4 years: 6 (14%)
4-5 years: 9 (21%)
5-6 years: 9 (21%)
6-7 years: 3 (7%)
7-8 years: 2 (4%)
8-9 years: 3 (7%)
9-10 years: 1 (2%)
Edit: whoops, Jordan’s first two have the same Dad. Fixing.
Edit: Data error.
Edit: Thank you u/LividAtmosphere for the help filling in some gaps.
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2020.07.14 15:17 wm_1176 Official Rewatch Discussion Thread: Season 2, Episode 8: Parents

Episode Description: When Jess's parents, Bob and Joan, show up at the same time for Thanksgiving dinner, Jess takes the opportunity to "parent trap" them into a reconciliation, but her ploy backfires. Meanwhile, Schmidt and his bigger ex-Marine cousin, Big Schmidt, engage in a "manliness" competition.
Date Aired: November 20. 2012
Directed by: Jesse Peretz
Written by: Elizebeth Meriwether
Run Time: 21 Minutes & 54 Seconds
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Episode Trivia:
- Despite saying he is not able to kiss a man, Schmidt actually has aggressively kissed Nick on the mouth multiple times before.
- Rob Riggle states " Marine Corps cook of the year". Rob Riggle is a Lt. Col in the Marine Corps reserves.
- Jamie Lee Curtis stars as Jess's mom, and the Parent Trap is mentioned several times. Lindsay Lohan starred in the Parent Trap (1998) and also in Freaky Friday (2003) with Curtis.
- Rob Riggle guest stars in this episode as Schmidt's cousin, who is also named (last name)Schmidt. Riggle and Jake Johnson, who plays Nick Miller, would eventually star in Let's Be Cops together.
- Big Schmidt calls Schmidt "Schmiggle," which sounds similar to the last name of Big Schmidt's actor, Rob Riggle.
- Jessica Day traps her parents in a room and tries to rekindle their feelings. Jamie Lee Curtis starred in House Arrest which had very similar concepts.
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2020.07.01 02:28 HaRabbiAtta Clinically depressed, Visually disabled, working my ass off to stay alive and get a new awesome story.

37, Male, Israel (Yeah, that'll go over quietly...).
Returning to high school as the suicide kid wasn't much fun, as you can imagine. Memory and low self-esteem caused me to lose focus, deteriorate and drop out in 9th grade. Stayed at home for six months and attempted to OD on antidepressants. Spent six months in an asylum (tons of stories there, maybe some other time). Sold my car at the age of 25, due to deteriorating vision, lowering my mobility and self-esteem. Attempted to go to University, when my vision problems started. Depression, ADD and vision caused me to drop out after two semesters - First was great, second horrible, as my vision deteriorated from the hardship of all the reading, I wasn't yet considered disabled by the state, so I was 'granted' use of the disabled services, though not to a full extent (Had to pay for extras). A PHD student was assigned to assist me, though only for six hours a week, meaning the amount of reading and summering done was not enough.
The "Cool" part:
----------- Spent the time since the lock-down started depressed, forced to move back to my parents and was barely able to take care of myself. I only focused on the Church, as anything else was too stressful/depressing.
In six hours, I'll be back to work after the self-imposed hiatus, feeling ashamed for the time taken off, still not content or happy, not knowing if I give a shit about the work, the people or if I can even survive the experience... Going is the best move, I'm just too tired to go through it but I've got no chpoice. If I can't cut it there, I've got no idea what I can do and the depression makes it seem as though I'm looking at a blurry future in front of me. I'm scared, depressed, feeling lonely and can't seem to shake the feeling of fear of the future.
Feel free to AMA on any of the above.
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2020.06.30 21:12 ptazdba [S3] Use of the color Red

I went back and did a rewatch and tried to find what looked to be important uses of the color red. I would ask you to review my list and see if you can see any trends and add anything I may have missed. I tried to stay away from environment or clothing unless it was emphasizing a point in the story. A lot of it appeared to be photographic emphasis, but a few things stood out:
  1. The red hand prints in episode 5 emphasized that there was a destiny for this child with the red hands.
  2. Carolyn's red scarf in Episode 7. She said "It's starting to get personal". Then she lost it and broke things. Is there more to her statement that the walls were closing in and what does she know that we an only surmise? It was like Paul reached out and said "check" and she didn't get to sake "checkmate" until she shot him in Epsiode 8. There's more to her relationship with Konstantin possibly being Kenny's father that Carolyn may know that I guess will come out next season.
Episode 1
Episode 2
Episode 3
Episode 4
Episode 5
Episode 6
Episode 7
Episode 8
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2020.06.13 14:20 newtotownJAM The previous tenant left a survival guide. The flat isn’t new anymore and I need a better guide.

It’s been a long time since I moved into this apartment, picked up that damn note from the tenant before me and unlocked a world of demon window cleaners and vile, rat-like creatures that live in the communal lift.
If you don’t know me, my name is Kat and months ago I found myself living in a home filled with unusual occurrences, you can start here if you want to know more. If any of you do remember me, I’m back again, begging for your help.
I don’t even really know how to begin this but I think I owe you all an apology. You warned me, gave me advice and tried to stop me from making the biggest damn mistake of my life. I didn’t listen. Instead, I let my emotional immaturity get the better of me. I really wish I’d listened.
I’m sorry I ghosted you all. I was embarrassed. I know I disappeared without a word and for that I really am sorry. I can’t blame any of you for comparing me to Prudence.
The events following my moving into the block had me in such an emotional place. You have to understand, it was a lot to take in, no one can be truly equipped to live somewhere like this, it was bound to catch up with me eventually.
The months since I last updated you have been hellish and now I’ve found myself in further trouble. It wasn’t long after my last post that I caught Jamie. I enticed him into the flat with cat food left out by the door. I ran the risk of being mauled alive by the remaining lift creatures to capture my monstrosity of a boyfriend.
He was smaller than I thought. I expected him to be much larger than Lyla because of the age difference, but he wasn’t. Maybe as big as a large dog. Something I missed about Jamie more than anything was his once huge stature, an odd quality to consider, I know, but he was 6’3 and his cuddles felt like the safest place I’d ever been.
Looking at the small, deformed, humanoid creature, hunched over, crunching on cat biscuits with its sharp, jagged teeth tucked under a grotesque rodent nose made me feel sick. I instantly knew that I’d made a mistake, that the love of my life was gone for good, but that thing had Jamie’s eyes, they were unmistakable.
Suddenly Prudence’s need to keep Lyla around made sense. I could see an entire life in those eyes that had been ripped away from me and I was too selfish to let it go. I suppose in that respect I’m exactly like her. Exactly what you all think. A monster.
I fashioned a place to keep him hidden in the large built in wardrobe of our bedroom. It wasn’t like Lyla’s cage was - cold and restrictive - it had space, lights and photos of us before everything happened.
It was like a walk in wardrobe, ironically it was something that originally attracted me to the flat. The only similarity to Lyla’s tiny cage was the large padlock that secured it.
I tried everything to bring that little piece of Jamie left inside the creature out, I really did. I sat with him for hours, talking about our lives, reminiscing and trying to feed him his favourite meals. He would make awful raspy noises when I spoke to him at first; grunting and wheezing as if he were struggling to breathe.
I received more than a few bites and scratches and he refused to eat anything that I gave him, opting for scraps instead.
I thought about killing him. A lot. It’s a position I never thought I’d be in when we were searching for a home together and at some point I realised I consider it daily. I’ve come close to attempting it more than a few times but every time I look at those damn eyes I can’t. I’m weak.
So I’ve tried to cope. I’ve taken the best care of him that I can. I’ve gotten involved with my neighbours, I babysat Terri’s twins twice a week at her place while she slept and I’m actively involved in the residents committee.
I never told anyone what I did, aside from all of you. There’s only two people I feel I could admit my mistakes to; one was locked in my wardrobe, whilst the other was seemingly gone forever.
Despite this, I kept the garden immaculate in the hope that one day Derek would return and it kept me sane. I even managed to revive one of the shrubs that Prudence tried to butcher during her attack, but no matter how much love I gave, it just wouldn’t flourish and the bench remained empty.
All this whilst I kept my deepest shame in my bedroom cupboard.
Regardless of all the anguish this place has bought me there’s nowhere else in the world I would consider home anymore. I’ve never felt more connected to a place in my life. So I’ve stayed, I’ve coped and I kept busy.
The tower block may be special, and it’s residents may often live in another world but we weren’t completely immune to the outside. Government lockdown hit us recently too. With lockdown came the loss of routine as we knew it.
The whole building went into chaos and I was no exception. Being trapped in the flat with him all day undid months worth of self distraction and denial in a matter of hours. I’d never been more aware of what an abhorrent thing I’d done than those first few weeks.
The other residents were going through their own crises. Terri hadn’t slept in weeks, we FaceTimed regularly and I missed her and the kids terribly, every time I spoke to her she looked awful. There was wailing at night, banging at all hours of the day and a whole buildings worth of inhabitants struggling.
When they deemed window cleaning non essential it sent that particular pest into chaos; he still appeared on the balconies but instead of the relentless niceties he just scratched desperately at the window. I tried not to open the curtains I finally got round to buying a few months ago, I couldn’t take his pleading eyes.
The residents committee tried to put things in place to keep the block going. We were running zoom meetings and a number of us started collecting essentials for the elderly and vulnerable residents of our floors. Having socially distanced chats with them from the corridor as we drop off. To be honest, it was as much a lifeline for me as the elderly residents... anything to get out of the flat, away from him.
I was allocated three residents from my floor, living in flats 48, 51 and 43.
Percy and Sylvia live in flat 43, they’re next door to me and generally very pleasant. Sylvia has a breathing problem so they had to isolate. They’re older, but very independent, most of the time they just needed a few essentials and didn’t want to chat.
Mr Prentice from flat 48 was easy too, he’d been an intensely private man since I’d known him and lockdown hadn’t changed that. He did seem to make more of the animalistic noises I’d come to know him for, but I think being trapped inside would do that to anyone with his particular afflictions. Since he trampled Prudence I’d been much more tolerant of the sounds anyway.
The only thing I really learned about him from doing his shopping is that he loves a drink and there’s often a bottle of whiskey in the bag he carries home with his newspaper inside.
Once a week he asked me to drop off an envelope of cash to the pub he drinks in, The Pickled Gnome. He said that the owner is a good friend and he worries about her getting by financially with the pub shut at the moment. It warmed my heart. He’s such a lovely man.
Flat 51 was different from the other two. I hadn’t ever met the occupant, despite having lived here for almost a year now. I’d seen a young man going in and out occasionally but he never stayed long.
The flat was occupied by Ms Esther Beckman, a blind, elderly widow. The man visiting was her son, who had his own profoundly disabled child and couldn’t support his mother through the pandemic.
The first time I knocked on her door I was nervous. I wasn’t sure why, I just felt uncomfortable trying to help someone I knew nothing about. I knocked and stood back, it took a few moments for Ms Beckman to answer.
Esther had wild greyed hair, she hadn’t cut it like most older ladies tend to, she’d allowed it to grow and it had formed spectacular waves. She was well presented and I’m embarrassed to say I didn’t expect that from a blind person. She wore a satin blue dressing gown over the top of a white day dress and had a pair of comfortable looking slippers on, that perfectly matched the colour of her dressing gown.
“Are you the girl Molly phoned about? I told her I’m fine but the interfering old bat insisted.” She greeted me with, rummaging in the pocket of her dressing gown for a packet of cigarettes, I watched her open the pack and light the last one.
Her brash attitude didn’t put me off, I liked people with a bit of tenacity and I wasn’t particularly fond of the residents committee’s chairperson, Molly Thompson, either.
“I’m Kat. Although I’m sure Molly will have referred to me as Katherine... not my name by the way. Anyway, I’m happy to pick up anything that you need, and I’m here if you just want to chat.” I stumbled a little as I spoke. Esther laughed.
“See, even interfering in something as personal as your name. I never liked that woman.” She paused and took a few drags of her cigarette, hesitating before she continued.
“I don’t need much. If you could grab me a pack of cigarettes and a microwave meal every day I’m fine. I don’t like to ask, but my son can’t come and without a smoke I think I’d go potty.” She took another long drag of her cigarette and reached into her pocket to pull out some change and a twenty pound note. She winced a little as she asked for help, it clearly wasn’t something she was used to.
“Throw me the packet, so I know which brand to get.” I answered.
Ester threw me the empty carton after shoving her money inside and I barely caught it. She smoked the same brand I did so I reached into my pocket and pulled out 3 or 4 individual cigs and tossed them back. They hit the floor. Shit. She’s blind, I thought, mortified.
“There’s a few cig’s on the floor in front of you... sorry... I didn’t think. But they’re the same as yours, they should keep you going until I get back.” As I said that she smiled properly for the first time.
“You’re alright, aren’t you. Thanks. Before you go, just a bit of advice for you, take the route through the park instead of round.” She answered.
I thought it was strange but everything in the tower was. I told her that I would and said my goodbyes. The stairs that constantly skipped weren’t kind to me that trip, the 7 flights became 18 and by the time I reached the bottom my thighs were burning.
I exited the building and thought about Esthers suggestion. The route around the park was quicker, but I decided a pleasant wander through the trees would only keep me away from Jamie for longer so without any further hesitation I took her advice. My legs were sore from the stairs but it was a beautiful day.
About halfway through the park I heard a loud crash and the screeching of car tyres followed by screaming. I sped up and when I finally reached the exit I turned the corner towards the shop and the source of the noise. It was utter carnage. A car had slammed into a motorbike at a zebra crossing and caused a devastating accident. Crowds gathered, with multiple people on the phone to emergency services.
I was shaken entering the shop, I couldn’t stop thinking about the poor people involved in the crash. Esthers words echoed in my mind as I thought about the fact that had I taken the usual route I would have probably been crossing at the crash site as it happened.
The realisation that Ms Beckman’s suggestion had saved my life sent my mind into overdrive. I know that many of you think I learned nothing from my experiences moving into the block, but I did learn that there are no coincidences here. She had known exactly what was going to happen.
I left the shop and chose to go back through the park, I was leaving nothing to chance, but it frustrated me that I couldn’t get back home quicker. When I reached the building I flung the main door open and started to climb the stairs. They must have sensed my urgency, because they only made me climb 4 flights this time.
I stared at the numbers on the flat door. 51. Why had I never met her before? Why had she been hiding in her flat? I placed the shopping bag close to the door, rapped hard on it with my knuckles and shouted.
“Ms Beckman!” A few moments passed. I knocked again.
“Give me a chance to open the door Kat. And please. It’s Essie. Or would you prefer I called you Katherine?” She opened the door and replied, scoffing as she said Katherine.
“How did you know?” I demanded.
“Know what?”
“You know what. You saved my life. The crash!”
“I didn’t save your life. I knew that if you walked around the park you’d be in trouble. I had no idea there would be a crash, I just made a suggestion. You saved your own life when you took it.” She said flippantly.
“So you can see the future?” I asked, desperate for answers.
“Don’t you dare! Blind woman... second sight. My whole life the residents of this block have tried to reduce me to a walking cliche and I’m not doing it anymore! I don’t see anything, I’ve been blind since birth. I’ve just always had a particularly accurate instinct.” She spoke with passion. I could see why she locked herself away, if the other residents knew about her talents I’m sure she was hounded.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to offend you. I haven’t been here long, these things still surprise me. Thank you for sharing your instinct. I would’ve been squished if you didn’t.”
“Well I’m glad you weren’t.” She reached down and picked up the shopping bag, taking out the packet of cigarettes to open and light one. “Thanks for this, she said rustling the bag with her fingers. What flat do you live in?”
“Number 42.” I answered. Essie beamed.
“Hah! I overheard someone saying that the old witch was dead but I wasn’t sure I believed them. I thought Prudence Hemmings would ride out a nuclear apocalypse like the cockroach she was.” I cringed at the sound of her name. I try not to think about her too much, or what she put me through. I try to focus on what I love about the block. Essie could tell she struck a nerve. “Did I hit a sore point?” She continued, noting my discomfort.
“I wasn’t a fan of Prudence either. The idea of her coming back with cockroach antennae’s in the night will keep me awake now.” I answered, trying to lighten the mood.
“You’re funny. If antenna would’ve benefitted that woman she’d have done anything to grow them. It’s nice to have some young blood in this place. It was all starting to get a bit old and stale. Take care Kat.” We said our goodbyes and she closed the door.
That night I thought about Essie. I imagined introducing her to the twins, I was sure she would love them, and I thought of trying to get her involved in the block again when all this was over. It made me smile. Unfortunately, my happy thoughts were soon interrupted by Jamie.
I sat on my bed with a cup of tea and could hear him from the cupboard, scratching and wheezing. I went and opened it up to stroke him a few times. Saliva dripped from his sharp teeth down his deformed jaw. It disgusted me.
I shut my eyes and tried to imagine my once gorgeous boyfriend, arms round me on the mattress on the floor of the flat for the one night that we got to spend here together. I wished every day to go back to that, but it would never happen. When I opened my eyes there he was... that monster.
I got close to Essie over those first few weeks. I got her cigarettes and a microwave meal every day and we chatted at the door. After a few days I was taking my morning cup of tea to sit in the corridor and talk to her. I started making enough food for two so that she could have something home cooked. She hated my lasagna, but she was grateful.
She had lost her husband young, not long after she had her son and never dated again. Her life was fascinating. She’d spent years as a social worker before she retired. She said that her instinct helped her give great advice to her clients and she’d managed to help a lot of people out of bad situations. Essie may have been older, but she was full of life.
I asked her why I never saw her, why she never came to committee meetings or got involved. As I suspected, she’d grown sick of the whole block hounding her for predictions about their lives. She told me that once Molly had begged her to tell her the gender of her unborn grandchild before the child’s mother had found out so that she could hold it over her.
It sounded like it got intense. People were offering to pay for the winning lottery numbers, or the bank details of Bill Gates. They didn’t want to listen when she tried to tell them that it wasn’t how it worked; so she kept a distance, saw her son and that was about it.
It made me sad, I vowed that even after this lock down was over I was going to keep spending time with Essie. I didn’t want to think of anyone hauled up at home all the time without anyone to talk to. I told Terri about her, and she remembered Essie being friends with her parents while she was growing up. Terri told me she’d been a resident forever.
I dropped Essie’s shopping at the door and sat down in the corridor to chat as usual one afternoon. We spoke about music and her love of Jazz. It was pleasant. Just before I left she stopped me and told me that she had an instinct that she needed to tell me about. It was unusual, she didn’t like to share them and I didn’t like to pester, but she insisted it was important.
“Kat, one of your friends needs help. You need to know that it is possible, it won’t be easy but if you look hard enough you will find a way.”
That was all she said. She claimed it was all she knew, but I think Essie liked to hold things back sometimes. Either way it was cryptic and confusing. I lamented her for it.
“That’s all your giving me? What am I supposed to do with that?” I quizzed her.
“Haven’t got a fucking clue.” She replied lighting yet another cigarette. “I got an instinct and I told you. What more do you want? There’s others in this block that would kill for one of Essie Beckman’s famous instincts.” She laughed and flipped her wild hair mockingly.
I sat in the corridor outside hers for a while, even after she closed the door. I thought about what her instinct could mean.
When I finally gathered up the stomach to enter my flat I thought of Jamie. What if it meant I could help him? What if what I’d done was reversible? What if there was hope?
Or maybe it meant that killing him really was the only way I could help him, and if I looked at myself hard enough I’d finally find the strength to follow through.
I struggled to sleep that night despite trying to go to bed early. Every scratch, wheeze and gasp from the cupboard sent me bolt upright and it took until just after 1am before I finally drifted off.
When I woke in the morning I had 5 missed calls from Terri, 2 from 3am and 3 from that morning. My heart dropped. The kids. I knew Ellie had been going through a stage of trying to get out of the flat and I was terrified something had happened to her.
I could barely hold the phone as I dialled back. Thankfully, she answered quickly.
“Terri! Are you ok? What’s happened? Are the kids ok?” I practically screamed at her down the microphone.
“Kat. I’m fine, we’re fine! But I have to tell you something.” Terri was serious, she was never serious.
“What is it?”
“Last night, Ellie got out. She made it all the way up to your floor to try and visit you by the time I caught up with her. As I was about to march her downstairs I spotted something. It’s Ms Beckman, Kat....She was walking into the lift.” Her words cut into my soul. I let out a gentle sob.
“I’m sorry Kat. I tried to stop her, I screamed her name but she didn’t turn. She just walked in. I couldn’t do anymore, I had Ellie there and when I checked the time.... it was quarter past 2. I’m so sorry.”
And that’s where this predicament begins, in an ironically similar place to before, with me mourning the loss of a loved one to the lift.
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2020.05.31 18:40 Shankism2 It's been over a week, the funeral is done. Here's Hana Kimura's obituary from Dave Meltzer.

It's been over a week, the funeral is done. Here's Hana Kimura's obituary from Dave Meltzer.
The death of Hana Kimura this past week is a complicated story about reality shows, the worst aspects of social media and cyber bullying, and likely with the unique aspects of the time we are living in.
The end result was the suicide death of a 22-year-old woman who had high-level stage presence and a unique look, and was likely to explode in 2020 had this been a normal year, as the most marketable and biggest star in Japanese women’s wrestling.
The story has far wider implications in so many different ways than most pro wrestling stories. Its repercussions, besides her own death, include the possibility of the end of a popular worldwide television show, and even more, talk in Japan about enacting new legislation that would make cyber bullying a more serious crime. While obviously a huge news story in Japan, it garnered a lot of mainstream attention in the U.S. due to the popularity of the television reality show “Terrace House.”
“Terrace House,” the show she was a cast member in, was a major prime time show on the Fuji TV Network, where it usually drew five to six million viewers. But it also had a large following outside of Japan, on Netflix, where it airs with English subtitles. Netflix doesn’t release viewer numbers, but the show was said to have delivered numbers well above what was expected for that type of a show.
On 5/22, the day of her death, Terrace House and Hana Kimura was the most searched topic in the U.S. on the Internet, with more than 500,000 searches, just ahead of Joe Biden
Kimura was suffering from bad depression for some time even as her wrestling career was on its ascent. She had mutilated her arms and cut her wrists in the past.
The turning point was an incident on the reality show where people wanting to be celebrities are put together with both scripted and unscripted scenarios to attempt to create relationships and relationship dramas. By American reality show standards, “Terrace House” is actually quite tame and the incident that led to her death would be at best a minor talking point on a show like “Jersey Shore” a few years ago.
Kimura was on the show starting in September, considered a major coup by the Stardom promotion to get her a mainstream following with the goal of making her and Giulia the two biggest stars in the company. The idea was to create a mainstream star in what is right now a very niche genre and expose her to a large network prime time television audience. Although very pretty and charismatic, because of her muscular shoulders as compared to most Japanese women, she stood out for her look as compared to some of the other women celebrities. While outgoing on the pro wrestling stage, in real life she was shy, and noted being very inexperienced in relationships with guys. That was actually part of her charm in the early weeks. Her character was viewed very positively in the early episodes.
It should be noted that Kimura went through a lot of bullying when she was growing up. Her mother, Kyoko Kimura, was a woman pro wrestler who competed a lot in death match style. Hana Kimura was of mixed ethnicity. Her father, who split from her mother and her when she was one, was Indonesian, so she was half-Japanese and half-Indonesian. This gave her unique features, but while growing up in school she was taunted over being different.
She grew up around pro wrestling, attending shows with her mother. She even won the DDT Ironman Heavymetalweight comedy title in 2005 (think WWE 24/7 title) at a show in Tokyo when she was eight years old. She immediately lost it to her mother.
Because of wanting to be a pro wrestler, she lifted weights and had, as compared to a usual Japanese woman, big shoulders and athletic arms and legs, but when people turned on her, they was mocked for that as well.
“Obviously Hana is very beautiful,” said one person close to her to us regarding the show. “But on the show, she is like twice the size of the other girls. And on the show, and in real life, she is very self-conscious because she has huge muscular shoulders compared to the other girls. And Terrace House fans also bullied her about that kind of stuff. It seems silly, because she is a very pretty girl, but it just goes to show that anyone can have self-confidence issues. You’d think from the looks of it, this girl would have it all. Very obviously she’s the one being pushed to lead her company.”
During the filming of the show, Kimura, a male comedian cast member named Kai, and two others, Yume and Sacho, went on a double date in Kyoto. Kai talked his career and showed a romantic interest in Kimura. But he was broke and when they did the double date, he didn’t pay for it because he didn’t have any money. Sacho, who owns a business and wanted the idea of a double date because of his interest in Yume, was willing to pay for it. Kimura was mad at Kai for not paying for the date in their Air BnB rental when in a bath with Yume, the other woman.
Some fans of the show were mad because they wanted Kimura & Kai to hook up and it was clear that wasn’t going to happen.
But the actual storyline came later, in a show taped during the week of 1/19 to 1/25, and aired on 3/31.
Kimura had put her wrestling costume that she had been using of late in the washing machine. Kai put his own clothes in the washing machine. He then came back and threw his clothes and her wrestling costume in the dryer, which shrank it and ruined it.
When she found out, she started yelling at him, saying this was the ring costume she wore on 1/4 at the Tokyo Dome on the biggest match of her life and the costume had so many memories for hear and it was like her life. She yelled at Kai and basically slapped his hat off his head because at first he wasn’t apologetic.
She last wore the outfit on the 1/19 show in Tokyo and wore an older outfit on the 1/26 show. She had confided in friends that something happened on the show and she was worried that the public would not like the way she came off. There was a report that Kai and Kimura had made up but that it didn’t air on the show. Then, due to COVID-19, the show shut down production so this was the lasting impression of her.
She was bombarded with hate over social media. Whether no more filming of episodes (the show had continue on Fuji television with the final episode on 5/19 before this week’s episode and the rest of the season was canceled but new footage had not been shot in a few months), plus her regular routine of wrestling was shut down and taken away. It may have taken away a means to cope with the depression, and things got much worse.
It should be noted that all the negative messages, including her getting messages daily saying she should die, came from Terrace House viewers and not from the wrestling fan side. But a tiny but hurtful percentage of wrestling fans are no different which why this touched such a nerve in wrestling, particularly among women performers. She was constantly being told if her costume meant so much to her, why did she leave it in the washing machine.
There were fans who sided with her as well, who saw that the frustrations between the two had been building and that Kai shouldn’t have just nonchalantly put his clothes in and then put everything in the dryer without noticing it was her unique wrestling gear. Others were negative to her about leaving her gear in the washer and that she shouldn’t have been so rude. It got to the point where Kimura disabled all comments on her Instagram because she was getting so much hate. In a later episode, Kai left the house and tried to make up with her by paying her the costs of making a new outfit. When he left the house, everyone gave him a goodbye hug except her, which also villainized her since to a lot of the women viewers, he was a popular character.
“Terrace House” is a tamer version of the type of shows where good looking young men and women are put together with the idea of people watching romances and drama. The show was in its fifth season, and titled, “Terrace House Tokyo: 2019-2020.”
Instead of drinking parties and exotic locations, it’s people who want to become bigger celebrities in a house doing mundane things on a daily basis, more like real life, grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, going to restaurants, watching TV and exploring each others’ day jobs. The cast members come and go, but it’s always three women and three men, young, good looking and if one leaves, a member of the same sex will replace them. The show had great critical acclaim in both the U.S. and Japan, where it was said to be far more real than most reality shows, and sometimes was called a reality show that will appeal to people who hate reality shows. But the idea is romances still spring up.
Kimura was focused on in an episode where all the cast members came to watch a Stardom show. She then explained what pro wrestling was to the other cast members afterwards. She talked about the struggles of working as a woman wrestler, misconceptions about women wrestlers and her struggles with balancing her unique job and real life.
There are no scripts, but producers do come up with storylines. The cast is not in the house full-time, but usually two or three days per week and when they are together, the producers tell the cast what they are looking for. They are told they want romances, but the cast members often come up with their own romances through real life as opposed to the romances being scripted. While this was not the case in the season she was on, but it came out in previous seasons that cast members would get a 50,000 yen ($466 U.S.) bonus for kissing scenes.
“I was told if I become famous or join Terrace House, receiving slander was unavoidable and it’s the tax of being a celebrity,” posted Ryo Tawatari, who was a cast member with Kimura, before leaving the show in February. “But is it really right? Honestly speaking, I receive lots of slander every day. Other members are in agony too.”
Emika Mizuokoshi, who was also on the show with Kimura, said she also received messages telling her to die.
“I was also slandered after joining Terrace House and was hurt,” said Mizuokoshi on Instagram. “But we are on TV, are all humans and have feelings. Words can be deadly weapons. We have to end this trend where you can say anything to so-called famous people.”
It was told to us from someone close to her that they knew the negative social media response was bothering Kimura and that in recent weeks it had gotten worse.
However, nobody had any sign her depression reached the level it did.
Kimura at first came across like a very nice young woman, similar to comments from foreign wrestlers who worked with her and said how sweet she was, how she loved to help them while they were in a foreign country and loved to practice her English with them. She could speak English very clearly, but only certain words and phrases and did not have a complete understanding of the language.
Bea Priestley from AEW, who lives in Japan most of the year with Will Ospreay, considered Kimura as one of her best friends.
Kimura expressed when she joined the show that she wanted people to learn to like women’s pro wrestling through her.
She said that she didn’t have much experience with boys growing up and had trouble expressing her real feelings for boys she had a crush on. That played out during her time on the show, a cute shyness but sometimes that inexperience manifested itself more negatively in front of the cameras.
At times she came across immature and complaining, and cried on the show. Some labeled her a crybaby. Instead of being able to be shown growing from that experience, the show stopped filming and that was the last the public saw of her, and the negative comments continued.
It seemed to be a cocktail of many things. The bullying from childhood leading to insecurity. Her wanting to become a mainstream star to make women’s wrestling popular again like it was more than 25 years earlier. A television show that emphasized her weaknesses on screen. Perhaps the pressures of knowing that she was chosen to be the person whose would the focal point of a company aggressively trying to bring back to glory days of the past under new ownership, and trying to live up to that status while perceiving she wasn’t coming across well on the television show.
And then COVID-19 came, shutting down both the filming of the television show and her work as a pro wrestler, where she got the positive reinforcement from the crowd constantly for her ability to shine as a performer in front of a live audience.
Late at night on the morning of 5/23 in Japan (5/22 in the U.S.), Kimura posted images of her arm that she had self-mutilated, which was covered by her ring costume when she had wrestled. She was there with her pet kitten, and basically did a farewell note on both Twitter and Instagram.
On twitter she wrote, “Nearly 100 frank opinions every day. I couldn't deny they hurt me. `Die,’ `You are disgusting,’ `You should disappear.’ I believed these things about myself more than they did. Thank you, Mother, for the gift of life. My whole life I wanted to be loved. Thank you to everyone who supported me. I love you all. I'm sorry for being weak.”
On Instagram, she posted photos of her with her pet cat, whether directed at her cat or her friends was not clear, which said, “Good-bye. I love you, have fun and live a long time. I'm sorry.”
This drew a ton of immediate attention throughout the U.S. pro wrestling community with people obviously panicking and questioning what was going on. In Japan, where everyone was asleep, people in that community were not at first aware of it.
Kaori Housako (Kairi Sane) had either seen the posts herself or been alerted immediately. She called up Stardom founder and CEO Rossy Ogawa, and I believe Jungle Kyona. It was Kyona who rushed to the apartment that Kimura lived alone in, but it was too late.
Sponichi News in Japan reported that at around 4 a.m., which would be 3 p.m. on 5/22 Eastern time, some fire engines and an ambulance rushed into her apartment. Her death was believed to be a suicide due to the ingestion of hydrogen sulfide. The Koto Police Department’s Metropolitan department acknowledged a hydrogen sulfide fatality at 4 a.m., but further details were not released at the request of the family.
According to police sources in the Japanese media, Kimura was found on her bed with a plastic bag covering her head. A container of what was believed to have been hydrogen sulfide was found nearby. Several different suicide notes were found in the room.
There was a piece of paper attached to the door that read, “Toxic gas being generated,” according to Kyodo News.
There was another note addressed to her mother saying, “Thank you for giving birth to me.”
The news of her death hit the U.S. about nine hours later, as it was 12:10 a.m. Eastern time when Stardom reported, “We are very sorry to report that our Hana Kimura has passed away. Please be respectful and allow time for things to process, and keep your thoughts and prayers with her family and friends. We appreciate your support during this difficult time.”
The kitten, named Karage, which means fried chicken ball, because Kimura thought he looked like a fried chicken ball, was being taken care of in the Stardom wrestlers dormitory.
“For everyone who cheered, befriended and loved Hana, I am sorry I could not protect her,” wrote her mother, Kyoko Kimura. “I am sorry we now have this painful memory. If you are in pain, Hana will be in pain, too. Please keep the cheerful memory of Hana in your hearts.”
“She was a wonderful and gentle soul,” said New Japan Pro Wrestling in an official statement. “Our most heartfelt and deepest condolences go to her family, friends and fans at this time.”
This led to an immediate reaction in the U.S. pro wrestling community. Every promotion of any note, with the exception of WWE (although many of its talent did individually and Mauro Ranallo, because depression is a subject that hits very close to home with him, did mention her death on his own on NXT on 5/27 and pleaded for an end to cyber bullying) almost immediately expressed their sorrow. Although she had never worked for AEW, Excalibur gave a memorial speech on the company’s PPV show the next day, including hoping that this would a lesson for people to be nicer to each other. Her name was mentioned several more times during the broadcast.
“In 2016, I was on vacation in Japan and Rocky Romero put me in contact with Kyoko Kimura to go train while there,” said ROH performer Brody King. “She had me meet her at the train station outside of Tokyo to go to the Ice Ribbon dojo to train. That’s when I met Kyoko and her aspiring pro wrestler daughter, Hana.
“From the moment I met them, they treated me like I was family and not like an unknown Gaijin stranger. Hana was kind, friendly and you could tell how close she was with her mother. After a couple of training sessions I said goodbye to Hana, not knowing if our paths would ever cross again.
“Flash forward to 2019. I’m standing on the floor of Madison Square Garden staring at the empty arena taking it all in, when I hear a voice scream, `BRODY!’ I look to my left and a beautiful pink-haired Japanese girl ran up and hugged me. Once I was able to see her face, I realized it was Hana.
“That moment was surreal to me. Two people from different parts of the world hoping to make it are now standing together in the world’s most famous arena living our dreams. You were too good for this world, Hana. This one hurts.”
“I remember attending a Shin-kiba show in Stardom and hanging out backstage,” wrote Will Ospreay. “After the show, I was waiting around and watching a video on my phone. For the life of me, I can’t remember what I was watching, but Hana popped her head out and said, `Hey Ospreay, what are you watching.’
“She sat next to me and watched this video on my phone for like five minutes, and as it finished, she said, `I don’t understand.’ I laughed at looked at her and said, `Why did you stay then.’ She replied, `I wanna be with Ospreay.’
“The girl had no idea what was being said on the video but wanted to keep my company while I was on my own. We don’t speak the same language but she cared so much about everyone she met. Treasure the memories that bring a smile to your face. I love you so much Hana, you brightened up every day I saw you.”
The reaction was strongest among women performers across all promotions, some of whom knew her directly from competing in Japan, or when she came to the U.S. with ROH. All who followed the business knew of her. The nature of the death hit a cord in particular women performers in wrestling, who all at one time or another are harassed by fans on social media. Men are as well, but often with women it’s tougher because it’s such as cosmetic business for women still, and no matter what, nearly everyone gets harassed over their looks which can lead to all kinds of different reactions, usually not positive.
For others who knew her from working with her, it wasn’t so much the enragement about the issue of cyber bullying, but losing a close friend.
“Thanks you for teaching me Japanese, teaching me Japanese dances, always checking (if) I’m okay, for being my translator,” wrote Xia Brookside. “Most importantly, thank you for being there and making me laugh. It’s so hard to be away from home, but you made Japan feel like home.”
“Legit, my first day at Stardom, she was the most welcoming cause she had the best English out of the entire locker room,” wrote Session Moth Martina. “She loved talking to the gaijin’s to improve her English. I looked forward to seeing her every show. I’m truly heartbroken right now.”
“Famous people are people too,” Martina continued. “Everyone has feelings and they can all be hurt. People can have thick skin, but it’s only so thick before it penetrates. Be careful with your words, you have no idea how much words can hurt.”
“It absolutely breaks my heart how cruel people can be on social media,” wrote TNA champion Tessa Blanchard. “It was an amazing honor to know Hana Kimura. She was an amazing girl with the kindest soul and immense passion and work ethic. I'm at a loss of words over this tragedy. Rest In Peace my friend.”
“Distraught. I don't even know what to say or feel. Numb. I can't express it. RIP Hana Kimura,” said AEW wrestler Jamie Hayter. “Such a wonderful human being. The gaijin helper. All the potential. A beautiful soul. Kind. I just can't even put in to f***ing words how upsetting this is. I hope you found peace."
“My heart hurts so much right now, I just don’t want to believe it,” wrote Leyla Hirsch, who wrestled in Stardom earlier this year. “Hana was such an amazing, beautiful, kind, soul. When I first got to Stardom, it was Hana that made me feel welcomed. She was always upbeat and always willing to take care of us. She was a lot of fun to be around. Even though I never got to compete against Hana, I was so lucky to have been fighting by her side the whole time I spent in Japan. She was always patient with me, even when I couldn’t get the , `Yes, Sir.” (Chant)
In Japan, there was a different reaction, with it more geared toward the subject of Cyber bullying, where she became the immediate poster child so to speak for legislation that was talked about very quickly after her death.
In addition, “Terrace House,” canceled the remainder of this season and there is some question whether the show will ever return.
“We would like to express our sincere condolences for the death of Hana Kimura, who appeared on the program (Terrace House),” said a statement made by the Fuji TV Network. “We also deeply mourn the bereaved families. Regarding Terrace House: Tokyo: 2019-2020, we have decided to stop recording, broadcasting and distribution on FOD in the future. We take this issue very seriously and would like to continue to earnestly respond to it.”
Sanae Takaichi, Japan’s Minister of Internal Affairs and Communications on 5/26 said he wanted to speed up government discussions around legislation regarding the issue of cyber bullying. In particular they were looking at whether Internet posts could be prosecuted for slander or defamation.
Takaichi said procedures are needed to disclose information on senders in order to curb online abuse and rescue victims. He said that the government plans to revise existing laws quickly to simplify procedures to identify individuals who make defamatory posts online. He is aiming for draft legislation before the end of this year.
Japanese law allows the victim of abusive posts to ask Internet service providers to disclose information on senders and permits damages to be leveled, but the law is considered weak and of little consequence in practice. Victims have to go through court proceedings to identify abusers which can take six months to a year, and includes very costly legal fees. Plus, service providers often claim not to have saved the records. It’s even more difficult when it’s Twitter, because it’s based outside of Japan and it’s almost impossible for Japanese police to investigate.
Yoshihide Suga, the Chief Cabinet Secretary, expressed condolences to Kimura’s family and said, “It is important to improve literacy on the Internet so that users won’t use comments to hurt others with slander.”
Yukio Hatoyama, the former Prime Minister, expressed sympathies to Kimura and called for legal remedies against cowardly anonymous cyber bullies.
This follows a similar situation in South Korea after the suicide deaths of famous K-pop singers Sulli, on 10/14, at the age of 15, and Goo Hara, on 11/24, at the age of 18.
Even at her young age, before her suicide, Sulli had been outspoken about her own mental health issues that worsened due to what she called malicious online rumors and comments. She was co-hosting a show called “The Night of Hate Comments” and read out hateful messages about herself while trying to blow them off and laugh about them, but was public about her pain.
South Korean lawmakers began to draft legislation after her death. It led to some major South Korean online news platforms to limit reader comments on celebrity news.
After Kimura’s death, numerous people who had harassed her on social media began deleting their accounts, while media reports
Stardom received condolences from all walks of life in Japan, from politicians to business leaders major sports and entertainment celebrities, including Chicago Cubs star Yu Darvish (who is married to former multi-time world champion amateur wrestler Seiko Yamamoto, the sister of Kid and Miyuu).
Rossy Ogawa, the founder and head of Stardom, said they are, as a company, considering taking legal action against malicious cyber bullying.
But this also becomes a freedom of speech and freedom of expression issue.
“There are no words that could possibly heal this wound,” said Ronda Rousey, whose life has been filled with some of the most intense cyber bulling of anyone in the sports world over the last eight years, particularly in her early UFC days when so many desperately wanted to her fail as a fighter and as a drawing card, and later from her portrayal as a coach on a season of The Ultimate Fighter. “Cyber bullying is a very real and growing threat to us all as a society. Even a straw’s weight can be the one to break a camel’s back. I didn’t personally know Hana Kimura, but it’s still very painful to learn about what happened.”
But another close friend of hers, who did not want to talk for this article, said that even while well intentioned, they were not happy that people were using her death for their own purposes, and only interested in talking about her because she took her own life. Others echoed the same feeling, noting her death becoming the lightning rod for people talk about cyber bullying.
Stardom had been planning on taping empty arena matches this week, which would start airing on its streaming service on 5/29. Out of respect to her and the talent, the company is taking a period of mourning this week and is expected to start doing empty arena shows next week.
Kimura was always around pro wrestling growing up, attending her mother’s matches when they were in the Tokyo area. She trained at the Wrestle-1 school and made her official debut on March 30, 2016, for that promotion, shortly before her 19th birthday.
She won the JWP jr. title on September 18, 2016, defeating Yako Fujigasaki in a tournament final. She worked as a free agent in a number of different companies until signing with Stardom 14 months ago.
Her first match with Stardom was on September 22, 2016, on a major show at Korakuen Hall. She teamed with her mother and Kagetsu to beat Momo Watanabe & Jungle Kyona & Mayu Iwatani.
Her second match in Stardom saw the same threesome win the Artist of Stardom (trios) championship from Io Shirai & Kairi Hojo (Kairi Sane) & Iwatani at Shinkiba, the home base of the promotion, on the show’s main event.
She was injured in January and the titles were vacated.
She returned on January 22, 2017, for a show promoted by her mother, called “The Last Afro,” which was her mother’s retirement show. Kyoko Kimura, who remains around pro wrestling constantly because she has a food truck business and parks in front of the arenas at many of the Tokyo shows, was noted for her wild afro hairstyle. The show drew 1,028 fans to Korakuen Hall, a big number for a woman’s show at that point in time..
In the main event, Kyoko & Hana teamed with Isao in a losing effort against three legends of the business, Minoru Suzuki & Aja Kong & Meiko Satomura. But after the main event ended, Kyoko asked for one last match, against her daughter. In an emotional farewell, in a ceremonial passing of the generation torch, Hana pinned Kyoko in 4:01 to end her mother’s career.
While still green as a worker, because of the emotion from that scene and her family name, along with her look, Hana Kimura was an immediate star as a pro wrestler.
She was part of the Oedo Tai group in Stardom. She & Kagetsu won the Goddesses of Stardom (tag titles) over Kyona & Hiroyo Matsumoto on June 21, 2017, at the Galaxy Stars show. They held those titles until June 3, 2018 losing to Iwatani & Saki Kashima.
In 2018, she first worked overseas for ROH in the U.S. and Pro Wrestling Eve in the U.K. She split from Kagetsu and left Oedo Tai in an angle on September 24.
In April, 2019, she became the leader of a heel group called the Tokyo Cyber Squad. On May 16, 2019, she, Kyona & Konami won the Artist of Stardom trios titles over Iwatani & Kashima & Tam Nakano. They lost the titles back to the previous champions on June 23, 2019.
When Bushiroad purchased the promotion from Rossy Ogawa, the word from the top was to make Kimura and Giulia into the top stars. Kimura won the Five-Star Grand Prix tournament, beating Konami in the finals on 9/22 at Korakuen Hall. This set her up to challenge World of Stardom champion Priestley on 10/14 at Korakuen Hall, a match she lost in 21:47.
It was clear that she had made substantial improvements in the ring during 2019.
Bushiroad, in trying to expose the product and start what was going to be the main focused program for big events this year, teamed Giulia & Kimura against Iwatani & Arisa Hoshiki on New Japan’s 1/4 Tokyo Dome show in a dark opening match. While the show itself sold out with 40,008 paid and about 44,000 total in the building, it was early and it was likely closer to 35,000 when her match opened the show at 4 p.m. Still, it was a far cry from the type of audience she was used to. The crowd was polite, but not emotionally invested in the match. It was clear the audience knew her and considered her the biggest star of the four, some knowing her from pro wrestling, other fans who had no interest or knowledge of women’s wrestling knew her from Terrace House.
The angle was she and Giulia losing and splitting up to start their program.
They had opposed each other in tag matches, but had not gotten to the singles match when things shut down. Kimura’s last match was on Stardom’s last show, the one-night single-elimination Cinderella tournament on 3/24 at an empty Korakuen Hall. Kimura and Iwatani went to a no contest, eliminating them both, in each woman’s first tournament match.

Here's Rossy's tweet about the funeral
Here's Hana's mother, Kyoko Kimura's tweet requesting to stop the hate spiral
DDM members playing with Hana's cat -https://twitter.com/syuri_wv3s/status/1266971303027736576
https://twitter.com/maika0324jto/status/1267026123436593152

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2020.05.27 14:52 dlkdev The Mouthbreather's Guide to the Galaxy

The Mouthbreather's Guide to the Galaxy
Alright CYKAS, Drill Sgt. Retarded TQQQ Burry is in the house. Listen up, I'm gonna train yo monkey asses to make some motherfucking money.

“Reeee can’t read, strike?” - random_wsb_autist
Bitch you better read if you want your Robinhood to look like this:
gainz, bitch


Why am I telling you this?
Because I like your dumb asses. Even dickbutts like cscqb4. And because I like seeing Wall St. fucking get rekt. Y’all did good until now, and Wall St. is salty af. Just google for “retail traders” news if you haven’t seen it, and you’ll see the salty tears of Wall Street assholes. And I like salty Wall St. assholes crying like bitches.
https://www.zerohedge.com/markets/retail-investors-are-crushing-hedge-funds-again

That said, some of you here are really motherfucking dense & the sheer influx of retardation has been driving away some of the more knowledgeable folks on this sub. In fact, in my last post, y'all somehow managed to downvote to shit the few guys that really understood the points I was making and tried to explain it to you poo-slinging apes. Stop that shit yo! A lot of you need to sit the fuck down, shut your fucking mouth and listen.
So I'm going to try and turn you rag-tag band of dimwits into a respectable army of peasants that can clap some motherfucking Wall Street cheeks. Then, I'm going to give you a mouthbreather-proof trade that I don't think even you knuckleheads can mess up (though I may be underestimating you).
If you keep PM-ing me about your stupid ass losses after this, I will find out where you live and personally, PERSONALLY, shit on your doorstep.
This is going to be a long ass post. Read the damned post. I don't care if you're dyslexic, use text-to-speech. Got ADHD? Pop your addys, rub one out, and focus! Are you 12? Make sure to go post in the paper trading contest thread first.

THE RULES:
  1. Understand that most of this sub has the critical reading skills of a 6 year old and the attention span of a goldfish. As such, my posts are usually written with a level of detail aimed at the lowest common denominator. A lot of details on the thesis are omitted, but that doesn't mean that the contents in the post are all there is to it. If I didn't do that, every post'd have to be longer than this one, and 98% of you fucks wouldn't read it anyway. Fuck that.
  2. Understand that my style of making plays is finding the >10+ baggers that are underpriced. As such, ALL THE GOD DAMN PLAYS I POST ARE HIGH-RISK / HIGH-REWARD. Only play what you can afford to risk. And stop PM-ing me the second the market goes the other way, god damn it! If you can't manage your own positions, I'm going to teach your ass the basics.
  3. Do you have no idea what you're doing and have a question? Google it first. Then google it again. Then Bing it, for good measure. Might as well check PornHub too, you never know. THEN, if you still didn't find the answer, you ask.
  4. This sub gives me Tourette's. If you got a problem with that, well fuck you.

This shit is targeted at the mouthbreathers, but maybe more knowledgeable folk’ll find some useful info, idk. How do you know if you’re in the mouthbreather category? If your answer to any of the following questions is yes, then you are:
  • Are you new to trading?
  • Are you unable to manage your own positions?
  • Did you score into the negatives on the SAT Critical Reading section?
  • Do you think Delta is just an airline?
  • Do you buy high & sell low?
  • Do you want to buy garbage like Hertz or American Airlines because it's cheap?
  • Did you buy USO at the bottom and are now proud of yourself for making $2?
  • Do you think stOnKs oNLy Go uP because Fed brrr?
  • Do you think I'm trying to sell you puts?
  • If you take a trade you see posted on this sub and are down, do you PM the guy posting it?
  • Do you generally PM people on this sub to ask them basic questions?
  • Is your mouth your primary breathing apparatus?
Well I have just the thing for you!


Table of Contents:
I. Maybe, just maybe, I know what I’m talking about
II. Post-mortem of the February - March 2020 Great Depression
III. Mouthbreather's bootcamp on managing a position – THE TECHNICALS
IV. Busting your retarded myths
V. LIQUIDITY NUKE INBOUND
VI. The mouthbreather-proof trade - The Akimbo
VII. Quick hints for non-mouthbreathers


Chapter I - Maybe, just maybe, I know what I’m talking about
I'm not here to rip you off. Every fucking time I post something, a bunch of dumbasses show up saying I'm selling you puts or whatever the fuck retarded thoughts come through their caveman brains.
"hurr durr OP retarded, OP sell puts" - random_wsb_autist
Sit down, Barney, I'm not here to scam you for your 3 cents on OTM puts. Do I always get it right? Of course not, dumbasses. Eurodollar play didn't work out (yet). Last TQQQ didn't work out (yet). That’s just how it goes. Papa Buffet got fucked on airlines. Plain retard Burry bought GME. What do you fucking expect?
Meanwhile, I keep giving y'all good motherfucking plays:
  1. 28/10/2019: "I'ma say this again, in case you haven't heard me the first time. BUY $JNK PUTS NOW!". Strike: "11/15, 1/17 and 6/19". "This thing can easily go below 50, so whatever floats your boat. Around $100 strike is a good entry point."
  2. 3/9/2020: "I mean it's a pretty obvious move, but $JNK puts."
  3. 3/19/2020, 12pm: "UVXY put FDs are free money." & “Buy $UVXY puts expiring tomorrow if we're still green at 3pm. Trust me.”
  4. 3/24/2020: “$UUP 3/27 puts at $27.5 or $27 should be 10-baggers once the bill passes. I'd expect it to go to around $26.”
And of course, the masterpiece that was the TQQQ put play.
Chapter II. Post-mortem of the February - March 2020 Great Depression
Do you really understand what happened? Let's go through it.
I got in puts on 2/19, right at the motherfucking top, TQQQ at $118. I told you on 2/24 TQQQ ($108) was going to shit, and to buy fucking puts, $90ps, $70ps, $50ps, all the way to 3/20 $30ps. You think I just pulled that out of my ass? You think I just keep getting lucky, punks? Do you have any idea how unlikely that is?
Well, let's take a look at what the fuckstick Kevin Cook from Zacks wrote on 3/5:
How Many Sigmas Was the Flash Correction Plunge?
"Did you know that last week's 14% plunge in the S&P 500 SPY was so rare, by statistical measures, that it shouldn't happen once but every 14,000 years?"
"By several measures, it was about a 5-sigma move, something that's not "supposed to" happen more than once in your lifetime -- or your prehistoric ancestors' lifetimes!
"According to general statistical principles, a 4-sigma event is to be expected about every 31,560 days, or about 1 trading day in 126 years. And a 5-sigma event is to be expected every 3,483,046 days, or about 1 day every 13,932 years."

On 3/5, TQQQ closed at $81. I just got lucky, right? You should buy after a 5-sigma move, right? That's what fuckstick says:
"Big sigma moves happen all the time in markets, more than any other field where we collect and analyze historical data, because markets are social beasts subject to "wild randomness" that is not found in the physical sciences.
This was the primary lesson of Nassim Taleb's 2007 book The Black Swan, written before the financial crisis that found Wall Street bankers completely ignorant of randomness and the risks of ruin."
I also took advantage of the extreme 5-sigma sell-off by grabbing a leveraged ETF on the Nasdaq 100, the ProShares UltraPro QQQ TQQQ. In my plan, while I might debate the merits of buying AAPL or MSFT for hours, I knew I could immediately buy them both with TQQQ and be rewarded very quickly after the 14% plunge."
Ahahaha, fuckstick bought TQQQ at $70, cuz that's what you do after a random 5-sigma move, right? How many of you dumbasses did the same thing? Don't lie, I see you buying 3/5 on this TQQQ chart:
https://preview.redd.it/9ks35zdla5151.png?width=915&format=png&auto=webp&s=2c90d08494c52a1b874575ee233624e61ac27620
Meanwhile, on 3/3, I answered the question "Where do you see this ending up at in the next couple weeks? I have 3/20s" with "under 30 imo".

Well good fucking job, because a week later on 3/11, TQQQ closed at $61, and it kept going.
Nomura: Market staring into the abyss
"The plunge in US equities yesterday (12 March) pushed weekly returns down to 7.7 standard deviations below the norm. In statistical science, the odds of a greater-than seven-sigma event of this kind are astronomical to the point of being comical (about one such event every 160 billion years).
Let's see what Stephen Mathai-Davis, CFA, CQF, WTF, BBQ, Founder and CEO of Q.ai - Investing Reimagined, a Forbes Company, and a major fucktard has to say at this point:

"Our AI models are telling us to buy SPY (the SPDR S&P500 ETF and a great proxy for US large-cap stocks) but since all models are based on past data, does it really make sense? "
"While it may or may not make sense to buy stocks, it definitely is a good time to sell “volatility.” And yes, you can do it in your brokerage account! Or, you can ask your personal finance advisor about it."
"So what is the takeaway? I don’t know if now is the right time to start buying stocks again but it sure looks like the probabilities are in your favor to say that we are not going to experience another 7 standard deviation move in U.S. Stocks. OTM (out-of-the-money) Put Spreads are a great way to get some bullish exposure to a rally in the SPY while also shorting such rich volatility levels."
Good job, fuckfaces. Y'all bought this one too, admit it. I see you buying on this chart:
https://preview.redd.it/s9344geza5151.png?width=915&format=png&auto=webp&s=ebaef4b1414d901e6dafe354206ba39eb03cb199
Well guess what, by 3/18, a week later, we did get another 5 standard deviation move. TQQQ bottomed on 3/18 at $32.73. Still think that was just luck, punk? You know how many sigmas that was? Over 12 god-damn sigmas. 12 standard deviations. I'd have a much better chance of guessing everyone's buttcoin private key, in a row, on the first try. That's how unlikely that is.
https://preview.redd.it/luz0s3kbb5151.png?width=587&format=png&auto=webp&s=7542973d56c42e13efd3502331ac6cc5aea42630
"Hurr durr you said it's going to 0, so you're retarded because it didn't go to 0" - random_wsb_autist
Yeah, fuckface, because the Fed bailed ‘em out. Remember the $150b “overnight repo” bazooka on 3/17? That’s what that was, a bailout. A bailout for shitty funds and market makers like Trump's handjob buddy Kenny Griffin from Citadel. Why do you think Jamie Dimon had a heart attack in early March? He saw all the dogshit that everyone put on his books.

https://preview.redd.it/8fqvt37ama151.png?width=3711&format=png&auto=webp&s=0b06ee5101685c5274c6641a62ee9eb1a2a3f3ee


Read:
https://dealbreaker.com/2020/01/griffin-no-show-at-white-house
https://www.cnbc.com/2020/03/11/bank-ceos-convene-in-washington-with-president-trump-on-coronavirus.html
https://www.proactiveinvestors.co.uk/companies/news/914736/market-makers--didn-t-show-up-for-work--macro-risk-ceo-says-914736.html
https://www.chicagobusiness.com/finance-banking/chicago-trading-firms-seek-more-capital
https://www.housingwire.com/articles/did-non-qm-just-disappear-from-the-market/
https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2020-03-22/bruised-hedge-funds-ask-clients-for-fresh-cash-to-buy-the-dip
https://fin24.com/Markets/Bonds/rand-bonds-rally-after-reserve-bank-intervention-20200320

Yup, everyone got clapped on their stupidly leveraged derivatives books. It seems Citadel is “too big to fail”. On 3/18, the payout on 3/20 TQQQ puts alone if it went to 0 was $468m. And every single TQQQ put expiration would have had to be paid. Tens or hundreds of billions on TQQQ puts alone. I’d bet my ass Citadel was on the hook for a big chunk of those. And that’s just a drop in the bucket compared to all the other blown derivative trades out there.

https://preview.redd.it/9ww27p2qb5151.png?width=2485&format=png&auto=webp&s=78f24265f3ea08fdbb37a4325f15ad9b61b0c694
Y’all still did good, 3/20 closed at $35. That’s $161m/$468m payoff just there. I even called you the bottom on 3/17, when I saw that bailout:

"tinygiraffe21 1 point 2 months ago
Haha when? I’m loading up in 4/17 25 puts"
"dlkdev
Scratch that, helicopter money is here."
"AfgCric 1 point 2 months ago
What does that mean?"
"It means the Fed & Trump are printing trillions with no end in sight. If they go through with this, this was probably the bottom."

"hurr durr, it went lower on 3/18 so 3/17 wasn't the bottom" - random_wsb_autist
Idiot, I have no way of knowing that Billy boy Ackman was going to go on CNBC and cry like a little bitch to make everyone dump, so he can get out of his shorts. Just like I have no way of knowing when the Fed decides to do a bailout. But you react to that, when you see it.
Do you think "Oh no world's ending" and go sell everything? No, dumbass, you try to figure out what Billy's doing. And in this case it was pretty obvious, Billy saw the Fed train coming and wanted to close his shorts. So you give the dude a hand, quick short in and out, and position for Billy dumping his short bags.
Video of Billy & the Fed train

Here's what Billy boy says:
“But if they don’t, and the government takes the right steps, this hedge could be worth zero, and the stock market could go right back up to where it was. So we made the decision to exit.”
https://www.businessinsider.sg/bill-ackman-explains-coronavirus-trade-single-best-all-time-podcast-2020-5
Also, “the single best trade of all time.” my ass, it was only a 100-bagger. I gave y’all a 150-bagger.
So how could I catch that? Because it wasn't random, yo. And I'm here to teach your asses how to try to spot such potential moves. But first, the technical bootcamp.

Chapter III. Mouthbreather's bootcamp on managing a position – THE TECHNICALS

RULE 1. YOU NEVER BUY OPTIONS AT OPEN. You NEVER OVERPAY for an option. You never FOMO into buying too fast. You NEVER EVER NEVER pump the premium on a play.
I saw you fuckers buying over 4k TQQQ 5/22 $45 puts in the first minutes of trading. You pumped the premium to over $0.50 dudes. The play's never going to work if you do that, because you give the market maker free delta, and he's going to hedge that against you. Let me explain simply:

Let's say a put on ticker $X at strike $50 is worth $1, and a put at strike $51 is worth $2.
If you all fomo in at once into the same strike, the market maker algos will just pull the asks higher. If you overpay at $2 for the $50p, the market maker will just buy $51ps for $2 and sell you $50ps for 2$. Or he'll buy longer-dated $50ps and sell you shorter-dated $50ps. Max risk for him is now 0, max gain is $1. You just gave him free downside insurance, so of course he's going to start going long. And you just traded against yourself, congrats.

You need to get in with patience, especially if you see other autists here wanting to go in at the same time. Don't step on each other's toes. You put in an order, and you wait for it to fill for a couple of seconds. If it doesn't fill, AND the price of the option hasn't moved much recently, you can bump the bid $0.01. And you keep doing that a few times. Move your strikes, if needed. Only get a partial fill or don't get a fill at all? You cancel your bid. Don't fucking leave it hanging there, or you're going to put a floor on the price. Let the mm algos chill out and go again later.

RULE 2. WATCH THE TIME. Algos are especially active at x:00, x:02, x:08, x:12, x:30 and x:58. Try not to buy at those times.
RULE 3. YOU USE MULTIPLE BROKERS. Don't just roll with Robinhood, you're just gimping yourself. If you don't have another one, open up a tasty, IB, TD, Schwab, whatever. But for cheap faggy puts (or calls), Robinhood is the best. If you want to make a play for which the other side would think "That's free money!", Robinhood is the best. Because Citadel will snag that free money shit like no other. Seriously, if you don't have a RH account, open one. It's great for making meme plays.

RULE 4. YOU DON'T START A TRADE WITH BIG POSITIONS. Doesn't matter how big or small your bankroll is. If you go all-in, you're just gambling, and the odds are stacked against you. You need to have extra cash to manage your positions. Which leads to
RULE 5. MANAGING YOUR WINNERS: Your position going for you? Good job! Now POUND THAT SHIT! And again. Move your strikes to cheaper puts/calls, and pound again. And again. Snowball those gains.
RULE 6A. POUND THOSE $0.01 PUTS:
So you bought some puts and they’re going down? Well, the moment they reach $0.01, YOU POUND THOSE PUTS (assuming there’s enough time left on them, not shit expiring in 2h). $0.01 puts have amazing risk/return around the time they reach $0.01. This is not as valid for calls. Long explanation why, but the gist of it is this: you know how calls have unlimited upside while puts have limited upside? Well it’s the reverse of that.
RULE 6B. MANAGING YOUR LOSERS:
Your position going against you? Do you close the position, take your loss porn and post it on wsb? WRONG DUMBASS. You manage that by POUNDING THAT SHIT. Again and again. You don't manage losing positions by closing. That removes your gainz when the market turns around. You ever close a position, just to have it turn out it would have been a winner afterwards? Yeah, don't do that. You manage it by opening other positions. Got puts? Buy calls. Got calls? Buy puts. Turn positions into spreads. Buy spreads. Buy the VIX. Sell the VIX. They wanna pin for OPEX? Sell them options. Not enough bankroll to sell naked? Sell spreads. Make them fight you for your money, motherfuckers, don't just give it away for free. When you trade, YOU have the advantage of choosing when and where to engage. The market can only react. That's your edge, so USE IT! Like this:

Example 1:
Initial TQQQ 5/22 position = $5,000. Starts losing? You pound it.

https://preview.redd.it/gq938ty8e5151.png?width=944&format=png&auto=webp&s=734ab7ed517f0e6822bfaaed5765d1272de398d1
Total pounded in 5/22 TQQQ puts = $10,824. Unfortunately expired worthless (but also goes to show I'm not selling you puts, dickwads)
Then the autists show up:
"Hahaha you lost all your money nice job you fucking idiot why do you even live?" - cscqb4
Wrong fuckface. You see the max pain at SPX 2975 & OPEX pin coming? Sell them some calls or puts (or spreads).

https://preview.redd.it/7nv23fr41a151.jpg?width=750&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=14a8879c975646ffbfe2942ca1982bfabfcf90df
Sold 9x5/20 SPX [email protected], bam +$6,390. Still wanna pin? Well have some 80x5/22 TQQQ $80cs, bam anotha +$14,700.

https://preview.redd.it/1iqtpmc71a151.jpg?width=750&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=df9b954131b0877f4acc43038b4a5a4acf544237
+$21,090 - $10,824 = +$10,266 => Turned that shit into a +94.85% gain.

.cscqb4 rn

You have a downside position, but market going up or nowhere? You play that as well. At least make some money back, if not profit.

Example 2:

5/22, long weekend coming right? So you use your brain & try to predict what could happen over the 3-day weekend. Hmm, 3 day weekend, well you should expect either a shitty theta-burn or maybe the pajama traders will try to pooomp that shite on the low volume. Well make your play. I bet on the shitty theta burn, but could be the other, idk, so make a small play.

Sold some ES_F spreads (for those unaware, ES is a 50x multiplier, so 1 SPX = 2 ES = 10 SPY, approximately). -47x 2955/2960 bear call spreads for $2.5. Max gain is $2.5, max loss is 2960-2955 = $5. A double-or-nothing basically. That's $5,875 in premium, max loss = 2x premium = $11,750.
Well, today comes around and futures are pumping. Up to 3,014 now. Do you just roll over? You think I'm gonna sit and take it up the ass? Nah bros that's not how you trade, you fucking fight them. How?
I have:
47x 2960 calls
-47x 2955 calls

Pajama traders getting all up in my grill? Well then I buy back 1 of the 2955 calls. Did that shit yesterday when futures were a little over 2980, around 2982-ish. Paid $34.75, initially shorted at $16.95, so booked a -$892 loss, for now. But now what do I have?

46x 2955/2960 bear calls
1x 2960 long call

So the fuckers can pump it. In fact, the harder they pump it, the more I make. Each $2.5 move up in the futures covers the max loss for 1 spread. With SPX now at ~3015, that call is $55 ITM. Covers 24/46 contracts rn. If they wanna run it up, at 3070 it's break-even. Over that, it's profit. I'll sell them some bear call spreads over 3050 if they run it there too. They gonna dump it? well under 2960 it's profit time again. They wanna do a shitty pin at 3000 today? Well then I'll sell them some theta there.
Later edit: that was written yesterday. Got out with a loss of only $1.5k out of the max $5,875. Not bad.
And that, my dudes, is how you manage a position.

RULE 7 (ESPECIALLY FOR BEARS). YOU DON'T KEEP EXTRA CASH IN YOUR BROKER ACCOUNT. You don't do it with Robinhood, because it's a shitty dumpsterfire of a broker. But you don't do it with other brokers either. Pull that shit out. Preferably to a bank that doesn't play in the markets either, use a credit union or some shit. Why? Because you're giving the market free liquidity. Free margin loans. Squeeze that shit out, make them work for it. Your individual cash probably doesn't make a dent, but a million autists with an extra $1200 trumpbucks means $1.2b. That's starting to move the needle. You wanna make a play, use instant deposits. And that way you don't lose your shit when your crappy ass broker or bank gets its ass blown up on derivative trades. Even if it's FDIC or SIPC insured, it's gonna take time until you see that money again.


Chapter IV. BUSTING YOUR RETARDED MYTHS

MYTH 1 - STONKS ONLY GO UP

Do you think the market can go up forever? Do you think stOnKs oNLy Go uP because Fed brrr? Do you think SPX will be at 5000 by the end of the month? Do you think $1.5 trillion is a good entry point for stonks like AAPL or MSFT? Do you want to buy garbage like Hertz or American Airlines because it's cheap? Did you buy USO at the bottom and are now proud of yourself for making $2? Well, this section is for you!
Let's clear up the misconception that stonks only go up while Fed brrrs.

What's your target for the SPX top? Think 3500 by the end of the year? 3500 by September? 4000? 4500? 5000? Doesn't matter, you can plug in your own variables.

Let's say SPX only goes up, a moderate 0.5% each period as a compounded avg. (i.e. up a bit down a bit whatever, doesn't matter as long as at the end of your period, if you look back and do the math, you'll get that number). Let's call this variable BRRR = 0.005.

Can you do the basic math to calculate the value at the end of x periods? Or did you drop out in 5th grade? Doesn't matter if not, I'll teach you.


Let's say our period is one week. That is, SPX goes up on average 0.5% each week on Fed BRRR:
2950 * (1.005^x), where x is the number of periods (weeks in this case)

So, after 1 month, you have: 2950 * (1.005^4) = 3009
After 2 months: 2950 * (1.005^8) = 3070
End of the year? 2950 * (1.005^28) = 3392

Now clearly, we're already at 3015 on the futures, so we're moving way faster than that. More like at a speed of BRRR = 1%/wk

2950 * (1.01^4) = 3069
2950 * (1.01^8) = 3194
2950 * (1.01^28) = 3897


Better, but still slower than a lot of permabulls would expect. In fact, some legit fucks are seriously predicting SPX 4000-4500 by September. Like this dude, David Hunter, "Contrarian Macro Strategist w/40+ years on Wall Street". IDIOTIC.
https://twitter.com/DaveHcontrarian/status/1263066368414568448

That'd be 2950 * (BRRR^12) = 4000 => BRRR = 1.0257 and 2950 * (BRRR^12) = 4500 => BRRR = 1.0358, respectively.

Here's why that can't happen, no matter the amount of FED BRRR: Leverage. Compounded Leverage.

There's currently over $100b in leveraged etfs with a 2.5x avg. leverage. And that's just the ones I managed to tally, there's a lot of dogshit small ones on top of that. TQQQ alone is now at almost $6b in AUM (topped in Fed at a little over $7b).

Now, let's try to estimate what happens to TQQQ's AUM when BRRR = 1.0257. 3XBRRR = 1.0771. Take it at 3XBRRR = 1.07 to account for slippage in a medium-volatility environment and ignore the fact that the Nasdaq-100 would go up more than SPX anyway.

$6,000,000,000 * (1.07^4) = $7,864,776,060
$6,000,000,000 * (1.07^8) = $10,309,100,000
$6,000,000,000 * (1.07^12) = $13,513,100,000
$6,000,000,000 * (1.07^28) = $39,893,000,000.

What if BRRR = 1.0358? => 3XBRR = 1.1074. Take 3XBRRR = 1.10.
$6,000,000,000 * (1.1^4) = $8,784,600,000
$6,000,000,000 * (1.1^8) = $12,861,500,000
$6,000,000,000 * (1.1^12) = $18,830,600,000
$6,000,000,000 * (1.1^28) = $86,526,000,000

And this would have to get 3x leveraged every day. And this is just for TQQQ.

Let's do an estimation for all leveraged funds. $100b AUM, 2.5 avg. leverage factor, BRRR = 1.0257 => 2.5BRRR = 1.06425

$100b * (1.06^4) = $128.285b
$100b * (1.06^8) = $159.385b
$100b * (1.06^12) = $201.22b
$100b * (1.06^28) = $511.169b

That'd be $1.25 trillion sloshing around each day. And the market would have to lose each respective amount of cash into these leveraged funds. Think the market can do that? You can play around with your own variables. But understand that this is just a small part of the whole picture, many other factors go into this. It's a way to put a simple upper limit on an assumption, to check if it's reasonable.

In the long run, it doesn't matter if the Fed goes BRRR, if TQQQ takes in it's share of 3XBRRR. And the Fed can't go 3XBRRR, because then TQQQ would take in 9XBRRR. And on top of this, you have a whole pile of leveraged derivatives on top of these leveraged things. Watch (or rewatch) this: Selena Gomez & Richard H. Thaler Explaining Synthetic CDO through BLACKJACK

My general point, at the mouth-breather level, is that Fed BRRR cannot be infinite, because leverage.
And these leveraged ETFs are flawed instruments in the first place. It didn't matter when they started out. TQQQ and SQQQ started out at $8m each. For the banks providing the swaps, for the market providing the futures contracts, whatever counter-party to whatever instrument they would use, that was fine. Because it balanced out. When TQQQ made a million, SQQQ lost a million (minus a small spread, which was the bank's profit). Bank was happy, in the long run things would even out. Slippage and spreads and fees would make them money. But then something happened. Stonks only went up. And leveraged ETFs got bigger and more and more popular.
And so, TQQQ ended up being $6-7b, while SQQQ was at $1b. And the same goes for all the other ETFs. Long leveraged ETF AUM became disproportionate to short AUM. And it matters a whole fucking lot. Because if you think of the casino, TQQQ walks up every day and says "I'd like to put $18b on red", while SQQQ walks up and says "I'd only like to put $3b on black". And that, in turn, forces the banks providing the swaps to either eat shit with massive losses, or go out and hedge. Probably a mix of both. But it doesn't matter if the banks are hedged, someone else is on the other side of those hedges anyway. Someone's eating a loss. Can think of it as "The Market", in general, eating the loss. And there's only so much loss the market can eat before it craps itself.

If you were a time traveller, how much money do you think you could make by trading derivatives? Do you think you could make $20 trillion? You know the future prices after all... But no, you couldn't. There isn't enough money out there to pay you. So you'd move the markets by blowing them up. Call it the Time-travelling WSB Autist Paradox.

If you had a bucket with a hole in the bottom, even if you poured an infinite amount of water into it, it would never be full. Because there's a LIQUIDITY SINK, just like there is one in the markets.
And that, my mouth-breathing friends, is the reason why FED BRRR cannot be infinite. Or alternatively, "STONKS MUST GO BOTH UP AND DOWN".

MYTH 2 - YOU CAN'T TIME THE MARKET

On Jan 14, 2020, I predicted this: Assuming that corona doesn't become a problem, "AAPL: Jan 28 $328.3, Jan 31 $316.5, April 1 $365.7, May 1 $386, July 1 $429 December 31 $200."
Now take a look at the AAPL chart in January. After earnings AAPL peaked at $327.85. On 1/31, after the 1st hour of trading, when the big boys make moves, it was at $315.63. Closed 1/31 at $309.51. Ya think I pulled this one out of my ass too?
Yes you can time it. Flows, motherfucker, flows. Money flow moves everything. And these days, we have a whole lot of RETARDED FLOW. Can't even call it dumb flow, because it literally doesn't think. Stuff like:

  • ETF flows. If MSFT goes up and AAPL goes down, part of that flow is going to move from AAPL to MSFT. Even if MSFT flash-crashes up to $1000, the ETF will still "buy". Because it's passive.
  • Option settlement flows. Once options expire, money is going to flow from one side to another, and that my friends is accurately predictable from the data.
  • Index rebalancing flows
  • Buyback flows
  • 401k passive flows
  • Carry trade flows
  • Tax day flows
  • Flows of people front-running the flows

And many many others. Spot the flow, and you get an edge. How could I predict where AAPL would be after earnings within 50 cents and then reverse down to $316 2 days later? FLOWS MOTHERFUCKER FLOWS. The market was so quiet in that period, that is was possible to precisely figure out where it ended up. Why the dump after? Well, AAPL earnings (The 8-K) come out on a Wednesday. The next morning, after market opens the 10-Q comes out. And that 10-Q contains a very important nugget of information: the latest number of outstanding shares. But AAPL buybacks are regular as fuck. You can predict the outstanding shares before the market gets the 10-Q. And that gives you EDGE. Which leads to

MYTH 3 - BUYBACKS DON'T MATTER

Are you one of those mouthbreathers that parrots the phrase "buybacks are just a tax-efficient way to return capital to shareholders"? Well sit the fuck down, I have news for you. First bit of news, you're dumb as shit. Second bit:

On 1/28, AAPL's market cap is closing_price x free_float_outstanding_shares. But that's not the REAL MARKET CAP. Because the number of outstanding shares is OLD AS FUCK. When the latest number comes out, the market cap changes instantly. And ETFs start moving, and hedges start being changed, and so on.

"But ETFs won't change the number of shares they hold, they will still hold the same % of AAPL in the index" - random_wsb_autist

Oh my fucking god you're dumb as fuck. FLOWS change. And the next day, when TQQQ comes by and puts its massive $18b dong on the table, the market will hedge that differently. And THAT CAN BE PREDICTED. That's why AAPL was exactly at $316 1 hour after the market opened on 1/31.

So, what can you use to spot moves? Let me show you:
Market topped on 2/19. Here’s SPY. I even marked interesting dates for you with vertical lines.

https://preview.redd.it/7agm171eh5151.png?width=3713&format=png&auto=webp&s=d94b90dcd634c8dc688925585bf0a02c3299f71b
Nobody could have seen it coming, right? WRONG AGAIN. Here:

https://preview.redd.it/i1kdp3cgh5151.png?width=3713&format=png&auto=webp&s=7a1e086e9217846547efd3b6c5249f4a7ebe6d9e
In fact, JPYUSD gave you two whole days to see it. Those are NOT normal JPYUSD moves. But hey maybe it’s just a fluke? Wrong again.

https://preview.redd.it/fsyhenckh5151.png?width=3693&format=png&auto=webp&s=03200e10b008257ae15d40b474c4cf4d8c23670f
Forex showed you that all over the place. Why? FLOWS MOTHERFUCKER FLOWS. When everything moves like that, it means the market needs CASH. It doesn’t matter why, but remember people pulling cash out of ATMs all over the world? Companies drawing massive revolvers? Just understand what this flow means.
The reversal:
https://preview.redd.it/4xe97l0oh5151.png?width=1336&format=png&auto=webp&s=07aaa93f6b1d8f542101e40e431edccbc109918f
https://preview.redd.it/v6i0pdmoh5151.png?width=1338&format=png&auto=webp&s=74d5589961db2f978d4d582e6d7c58a85f6305f9
But it wasn’t just forex. Gold showed it to you as well. Bonds showed it to you as well.
https://preview.redd.it/40j53u8th5151.png?width=3711&format=png&auto=webp&s=fe39ab51321d0f98149d33e33253e69f96c48e23
Even god damn buttcoin showed it to you.
https://preview.redd.it/43lvafhvh5151.png?width=3705&format=png&auto=webp&s=1ef53283cbc0fb97f71c1ba935c0bd747809636e
And they all did it for 2 days before the move hit equities.

Chapter V. LIQUIDITY NUKE INBOUND
You see all these bankruptcies that happened so far, and all the ones that are going to follow? Do you think that’s just dogshit companies and it won’t have major effects on anything outside them? WRONG.
Because there’s a lot of leveraged instruments on top of those equities. When the stock goes to 0, all those outstanding puts across all expirations get instantly paid.
Understand that Feb-March was a liquidity MOAB. But this will end with a liquidity nuke.
Here’s just HTZ for example: $239,763,550 in outstanding puts. Just on a single dogshit small-cap company (this thing was like $400m mkt. cap last week).
And that’s just the options on the equity. There’s also instruments on etfs that hold HTZ, on the bonds, on the ETFs that hold their bonds, swaps, warrants, whatever. It’s a massive pile of leverage.
Then there’s also the ripple effects. Were you holding a lot of HTZ in your brokerage margin account? Well guess what big boi, when that gaps to 0 you get a margin call, and then you become a liquidity drain. Holding long calls? 0. Bonds 0. DOG SHIT!
And the market instantly goes from holding $x in assets (HTZ equity / bonds / calls) to holding many multiples of x in LIABILITIES (puts gone wrong, margin loans, derivatives books, revolvers, all that crap). And it doesn’t matter if the Fed buys crap like HTZ bonds. You short them some. Because when it hits 0, it’s no longer about supply and demand. You get paid full price, straight from Jerome’s printer. Is the Fed going to buy every blown up derivative too? Because that's what they'd have to do.
Think of liquidity as a car. The faster it goes, the harder it becomes to go even faster. At some point, you can only go faster by driving off a cliff. THE SQUEEZE. But you stop instantly when you hit the ground eventually. And that’s what shit’s doing all over the place right now.
Rewatch: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3hG4X5iTK8M
And just like that fucker, “I’m standing in front of a burning house, and I’m offering you fire insurance on it.”

Don’t baghold!
Now is not the time to baghold junk. Take your cash. Not the time to buy cheap crap. You don’t buy Hertz. You don’t buy USO. You don’t buy airlines, or cruises, or GE, or motherfucking Disney. And if you have it, dump that shit.
And the other dogshit that’s at ATH, congrats you’re in the green. Now you take your profits and fucking dump that shit. I’m talking shit like garbage SaaS, app shit, AI shit, etc. Garbage like MDB, OKTA, SNAP, TWLO, ZM, CHGG etc.
And you dump those garbage ass leveraged ETFs. SQQQ, TQQQ, whatever, they’re all dogshit now.
The leverage MUST unwind. And once that’s done, some of you will no longer be among us if you don’t listen. A lot of leveraged ETFs will be gone. Even some non-leveraged ETFs will be gone. Some brokers will be gone, some market makers will be gone, hell maybe even some big bank has to go under. I can’t know which ones will go poof, but I can guarantee you that some will. Another reason to diversify your shit. There’s a reason papa Warrant Buffet dumped his bags, don’t think you’re smarter than him. He may be senile, but he’s still a snake.
And once the unwind is done, THEN you buy whatever cheap dogshit’s still standing.
Got it? Good.
You feel ready to play yet? Alright, so you catch a move. Or I post a move and you wanna play it. You put on a small position. When it’s going your way, YOU POUND DAT SHIT. Still going? Well RUSH B CYKA BLYAT AND PLANT THE GOD DAMN 3/20 $30p BOMB.

Chapter VI - The mouthbreather-proof play - THE AKIMBO
Still a dumbass that can’t make a play? Still want to go long? Well then, I got a dumbass-proof trade for you. I present to you THE AKIMBO:

STEP 1. You play this full blast. You need some real Russian hardbass to get you in the right mood for trading, cyka.
STEP 2. Split your play money in 3. Remember to keep extra bankroll for POUNDING THAT SHIT.
STEP 3. Use 1/3 of your cash to buy SQQQ 9/18 $5p, pay $0.05. Not more than $0.10.
STEP 4. Use 1/3 of your cash to buy TQQQ 9/18 $20p, pay around $0.45. Alternatively, if you’re feeling adventurous, 7/17 $35p’s for around $0.5.
STEP 5. Use 1/3 of your cash to buy VIX PUT SPREADS 9/15 $21/$20 spread for around $0.15, no more than $0.25. That is, you BUY the 21p and SELL the 20p. Only using Robinhood and don’t have the VIX? What did I just tell you? Well fine, use UVXY then. Just make sure you don’t overpay.


Chapter VII - Quick hints for non-mouthbreathers
Quick tips, cuz apparently I'm out of space, there's a 40k character limit on reddit posts. Who knew?

  1. Proshares is dogshit. If you don't understand the point in my last post, do this: download https://accounts.profunds.com/etfdata/ByFund/SQQQ-historical_nav.csv and https://accounts.profunds.com/etfdata/ByFund/SQQQ-psdlyhld.csv. Easier to see than with TQQQ. AUM: 1,174,940,072. Add up the value of all the t-bills = 1,686,478,417.49 and "Net other assets / cash". It should equal the AUM, but you get 2,861,340,576. Why? Because that line should read: NET CASH = -$511,538,344.85
  2. Major index rebalancing June 22.
  3. Watch the violent forex moves.
  4. 6/25 will be red. Don't ask, play a spread, bag a 2x-er.
  5. 6/19 will be red.
  6. Not settled yet, but a good chance 5/28 is red.
  7. Front run the rebalance. Front-run the front-runners of the rebalance too. TQQQ puts.
  8. Major retard flow in financials yesterday. Downward pressure now. GS 180 next weeks looks good.
  9. Buy leaps puts on dogshit bond ETFs (check holdings for dogshit)
  10. Buy TLT 1/15/2021 $85ps for cheap, sell over $1 when the Fed stops the ass rape, rinse and repeat
  11. TQQQ flow looks good:
https://preview.redd.it/untvykuxea151.jpg?width=750&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=a0a38c0acb088ebff689d043e48466eb76d38e2f

Good luck. Dr. Retard TQQQ Burry out.
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2020.05.21 22:15 TaraGhhp Part 2: Chris Watts prison calls with family from Weld Count jail — November 2018

Part 2 of my notes on the Weld County prison calls. Below is the original disclaimer from the Part 1. Again, please excuse grammaspelling!
(Please note: Because these are unreleased calls that AD released in a private, copywrited video, I have to be careful how I “transcribe” them. So instead of a verbatim transcript, I’ve paraphrased/quoted interesting points in the calls. This is to protect myself from plagiarism accusations, as well as respect a creator’s content. You can find all the calls on AD’s Patreon link below, it’s a $5 membership to listen. Thanks for understanding why I couldn’t do a transcript!).
AD Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/user?u=15931263 AD YouTube ad about the calls; 2:25 min total: https://youtu.be/mkFBYypi1Xw
Call 3 — Not sure if this is a second Thanksgiving Day call. Sounds like a totally new convo.
Call 4 — Ronnie and Chris. - [ ] 33 min call starts. Chris says he’s still at Weld County. - [ ] 34 min Ronnie asks Chris how hes doing. Chris says, “(Something) was pretty horrible.” It’s hard to make out what he saying, background interference. Ronnie replies, saying “Yep, we were there ...” but his statement is also hard to make out. Per usual for Ronnie unfortunately. Pretty sure they’re talking about his sentencing hearing. - [ ] 34:45: Ronnie talks about the victims impact statement. Says “that woman” who gave their opening statement is a victim’s rights advocate and defense attorney. She’s the reason they were able to give a statement as “victims”. - [ ] 35:15: Chris: “That was awesome what you guys said, thank you.” - [ ] Ronnie says he wanted to say more, but was out of time after Cindy spoke. “Your mother kinda lost it, I couldn’t say anymore.” - [ ] Chris says he was crying through all of it, but trying not to. - [ ] 36 min: Ronnie: “ I know this is being recorded and everything, but if you decide you wanna fight this there are people out there that’ll fight.” Chris replies that he knows, and gets plenty of letters from people saying that. Including people be knew personally before the murders. Ronnie asks again if he’ll fight. - [ ] 36:55: Chris says, “ I know, I’m not going to do that. I’m taking responsibility for it. This is all recorded anyways, but, it’s hard to talk about. Can’t really talk about the stuff on the phone, don’t think I ever will.” - [ ] Ronnie implies they can try when he’s moved. Chris says, “It’s not going to bring anybody back.” - [ ] Approx 37:40: Sounds like Ronnie is sort of asking/implying that Chris could talk more when he’s moved. Almost sounds like he’s asking for details. - [ ] Chris dodges the question by describing what will happen when he’s moved, physical and mental screenings. “They figure out where to put you.” - [ ] The next few min was mostly sports chatting, travel stuff. Plane ticket prices. - [ ] 43 min Chris says, “ I didn’t want you guys to spend all that money to come out here if you weren’t going to see me.” Ronnie says they’re supposed to be reimbursed for it (airfare and hotel). - [ ] 45 min: The call is ending, Chris says he hopes to talk to everyone when he calls tomorrow. Ronnie and Cindy will be at Jaimie’s. Personal observations: Chris seems more at ease telling his dad alone he prefers not to fight his case. Much of their talk is non-case related, not entirely at ease communicating.
Call 4 — Chris, Cindy, Ronnie, & Jamie (Chris mentions Thanksgiving and they say they’re cooking — second T-Day call?). - [ ] 45:50: Cindy’s saying she hadn’t been able to sleep until she talked to Chris yesterday. “I worried so much about you ... and you just don’t know how much you’re loved.” Ronnie/Chris start to chat non case-related topics. - [ ] 46:15: Cindy interrupts Ronnie and Chris chatting with various people’s messages of support. “Mark, and Kim Coffman (sp?) has been a big advocate for you. So many people out here who love and support you. Thousands and thousands.” - [ ] 46:37: Chris: “ I’ve gotten a few letters from friends. It’s been good.” - [ ] 46:46: Jaimie: “JP and Bobby Sparks love and support you, no matter what.” Again, Jaimie seems to be trying to subtly insinuate (without upsetting mom) that he can tell the truth and they’ll still be there. - [ ] Cindy: “Everyone’s on your side. AND we know the truth.” - [ ] Chris: Dodges, with something like “I’m glad there’s support out there.” - [ ] Jaimie steers convo to what Chris is eating that day, “What are they serving?” - [ ] 48:10: Cindy or Jaimie, hard to tell: Plaintively, “Will you fight?” Chris replies, “I’m going to stay strong, don’t worry I’m not going anywhere.” Cindy or Jaimie: “Well we know that! But will you fight?” Ronnie: “Will you talk to an attorney?” Chris again dodges, “I’m probably not going to be here much longer.” Cindy presses and Chris says they’ll hold off til he’s settled. Ronnie and Cindy ask him to think about it. He says, “ I just wanna get through the next few weeks.” Ronnie says, “We got to give him time.” - [ ] 49:22: Chris: “ I just want everyone’s memories to be happy memories of the last times.” Family reassures him he doesn’t have to worry about that. Cindy says, “We all have happy memories.” (I don’t know if they’re deliberately missing Chris’s point, or genuinely don’t understand. It seems clear he’s saying that in order to fight for him, they have to attack Shanann and dredge up bad memories). - [ ] 49:41: Cindy: “ I don’t understand why you didn’t want to fight.” Hard to make out Chris’s response, but it sounds like he’s saying it has to do with the phone and recordings. They reply it’ll be different when they can visit. - [ ] 50min: Cindy’s telling him if anyone comes to see him after he’s settled, do not turn them away. (Meaning a lawyer? Supporters?). Chris says, “Alright.” - [ ] Ronnie changes the convo to football, “The lighter side.” - [ ] 51:30: Ugh gag me. Cindy: Effusively saying how “You brought us all closer to God.” Chris: “Thats the saving grace with all this.” Cindy solo about God loving and forgiving us. - [ ] Ronnie/Cindy: “Anything is possible, you got a mountain to climb and he’ll get you there.” - [ ] 53:50: Again Cindy’s talking about the missing $50 on the card, “It’s gone!” - [ ] (Next few min are all “We love you, support you,” etc — trying not to be repetitive in these notes!). Chris is apparently responsible for everyone’s reestablishment of faith. It is interesting to me how no matter how effusive they get, Chris is pretty silent and/or monotone in his replies.
End of calls. I found the family dynamic pretty interesting. Chris really didn’t want anyone pursuing a “fight”, but really had trouble conveying that. Had to be pressed to talk repeatedly.
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2020.05.21 15:25 _Urethra___Franklin_ If I had been Marianne's Friend I would have told her To Stop Seeing Connell, and say that He is a User

HEAR ME OUT BEFORE YOU LAMBAST ME!
Lets say I had never seen this show, that I was a character within the story, Joanna for example. And Marianne came along, with my current personality (its started to change in the past few years but I am still quite a pessimist) of 'men are trash and will only use you to get in your knickers' (an opinion shoveled into me by my mother since I was a toddler; she should have just left that stupid marriage if she was so unhappy :P ) And I seen my friend, who openly admits she was a loser and a loner in school, who was sleeping with the most popular boy in school every single day but told her she had to keep it a secret, who invited her biggest female bully to the debs instead of her, someone he was literally having sex with daily, I would have called him a user, that he wanted one thing out of Marianne and that was sex, that he only said the nice things he does to keep her close, for sex, so she wouldn't figure out what was in that relationship for him; the sex. My mind would go to the men are trash who only want one thing part of my brain and told Marianne to look at the cold hard facts, and that he was just using her for sex.
Then they go to college and start sleeping together again, but he wont even touch her in public, that he cries if does, my brain would be wailing sirens. That instead of staying in his shitty cold non heated room with barely functioning lights he stays at Marianne's big plush house where she cooks him dinner and they have sex every single night, with a relationship 100% off the table; my mind would be blowing signals, HE'S TRASH, HE'S USING YOU FOR SEX (and a nicer place to crash in; yes I realise this is why their relationship falls apart in first year he's petrified of being seen by Marianne or anyone else as a sponger). I would be asking Marianne what is she really getting out of this? That he is only nice and friendly to her now cause its convenient, and that he is just using her. Maybe he even likes you as a person Marianne, but he is just using you at the end of the day. He breaks it off with her by saying they should see other people, so when he back tracked the following year I would be telling her, lets see other people is not something you accidentally say. That he was only back tracking now cause he regrets it now, not that it wa an accidental thing to let slip back then. She could justify it saying how Connell is afraid of emotional attachment but then I would point out how he was able to get in a relationship quite easily, when it suited him, with Helen, a practical stranger to him in comparison to Marianne. He could make a commitment and grand gesture when it suited him but he literally couldn't even touch Marianne's hand in public. That Marianne was his safety option at the end of the day, the one he didn't need to make an effort with cause hes a user and trash.
I definitely would have told Marianne to never get involved with Jamie, and when they were together I would have definitely pressured her into realising his flaws and perhaps questioning is the man I am dating a jerk, so its not specific to Connell :P
Now having read the book/seen the show I know that there is far more to it than the above, but I think if I had been a supporting character in that story, looking in from the outside I definitely would be that snarky friend who would be all "you can do bettehe's only using you"......this attitude meant I have always turned down a man who has approached me and hence my forever alone status :P Did anyone else feel like this? I am that friend who tells all my gal pals they are too good for their boyfriends whenever they do something that upsets them, my friends don't tell me if their boyfriends cheated on them months after the incident cause they know exactly what I am going to say-dump him. I stand by that however. Anyone any thoughts?
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2020.05.20 23:07 Kajabi We did some research to find 10 of the most unconventional online course/business ideas in high demand right now. We were pretty surprised by the results

Scroll down your Facebook feed, and you’ll most likely see friends experimenting with some new hobby or project you might’ve never expected. They’re baking artisan breads, building tool sheds, playing with watercolors. Who knew your network was full of eccentric characters?
It turns out being stuck at home brought out the creatives in many of us. On one hand, we’re figuring out how to be more self-sufficient out of necessity. On the other hand, we’ve become more curious about topics outside of our typical realm. Is it any wonder we’re experiencing an online learning boom?
Even before the pandemic, industry analysts had predicted the e-learning market to exceed $300 billion by 2025, pointing to course diversification as a competitive advantage. Now the market is even more hungry for online courses that are off the beaten path.
“Harvard University free courses” ranked as one of the most popular Google searches lately, but a recent deep dive into Google Trends also shows search increases in topics you might’ve never guessed: “fashion styling online course” was up 2,250%, “online art history course” was up 400% increase, and “online acrylic nail course” was up 120%.
If you’re thinking your expertise isn’t “mainstream” enough to earn profits, think again.
Of course, market demand is critical. But the more “under the radar” your course idea is, the easier it will be for you to stand out. Think about it: people are out there searching for the very topic you were born to teach.
We’ve scoured the internet, keyword search tools, and our very own Kajabi user database to handpick 10 unconventional niches in high demand right now. Hear it straight from Kajabi Heroes who have made it work for them:

1.Homesteading
For city folks craving a slower paced, secluded lifestyle, the idea of living off the land might seem idyllic. They might picture Little House on the Prairie, the shabby chic farmhouse kitchens on Instagram, or the YouTube videos on growing vegetables at home.
They have a lot to learn to make the pioneer lifestyle a reality. If you’re knowledgeable about subsistence farming, living off the grid, or living self-sufficiently, people are searching for your course.
“There is a myth that only certain subjects and categories of content lend themselves to being taught online. Permaculture, an environmental science that is very much hands-on, tactile, and visceral, would seem to be a poor fit for virtual instruction,” said Mohamed Marei, cofounder of Accolade Consulting Group, a strategy firm that worked with renowned permaculturist Geoff Lawton to create “Discover Permaculture” on Kajabi.
“But our experience suggests that—with rigorous instructional design, a fanatical commitment to the learning experience of our community of students, a bit of ingenuity, the right mix of technical solutions, and above all, a fantastic team—almost any topic can be taught online."
Marei confirmed that each of the permaculture course launches have hit the seven-figure mark.
Monthly global Google search volumes

  1. Online dating and relationships
With the widespread isolation, more people are craving human connection—romance in particular. Match Group, the online dating giant that owns Tinder, Match.com, Hinge, and others, reported significant upticks in activity since the pandemic. At Tinder, the number of conversations, as well as the length of conversations, have spiked up to 30%, particularly among users under 30 years old.
What if they could use some help setting up their profile? What if they had no idea what to say once the conversation starts? Could you be the savior to awkward online daters?
Kate Mansfield, a dating and relationship coach in the UK, says she’s learned that selling a high-ticket course is “much easier” than a cheap one. The Kajabi Hero earns on average £40k per month.
“The common misconception is that spiritual and personal coaching offers are harder to sell because there isn’t a clear financial gain to the outcome,” which Kate added, “is absolutely not true.”
“If you can get people past their fear and coping strategies,” she said, “you can charge whatever you like, because ultimately true love is a priceless outcome.”
Monthly global Google search volume for:

  1. Personality coaching
In times of chaos, people are naturally inclined to turn inward. More people are taking the time to assess their relationships, careers, and lifestyles. What’s life going to be like after the hard times are over? Personality tests like the DISC assessment, Myers–Briggs, and the Enneagram are helping people who seek clarity.
If you’re a psychologist, life coach, or career counselor with expertise on personality-based assessments, your online course could help thousands of people going through major life transitions. Maybe they need a push in the right direction. And maybe your course is exactly what they need.
Monthly global Google search volume for

  1. Home improvement projects
The home improvement industry is booming right now. Suddenly, property owners are motivated to paint the walls, install new floors, and anything else to freshen up outdated looks. Those long lines you might’ve seen outside of Home Depot or Lowes are becoming more common. In a recent two-week period tracking social media posts about home renovation ideas, an Ameritrade article documented a significant spike doubling normal levels.
Starr Tingle, owner of Sanctuary Homes and Remodeling, says the demand for home remodeling services has definitely blown up lately.
“All these people are stuck in their home and they’re looking at it, thinking, ‘Why have I been putting up with this crappy 1980s bathroom?’ Or, ‘My kitchen’s not functional. It’s dark. It’s out of style,’” she said.
Starr is building an online course on Kajabi, focused on how to be your own general contractor managing a remodel.
“If they knew how to run the project themselves,” she explained, “they could literally save thousands.”
If you’re a master at managing remodels or skilled at any type of DIY home project, people are looking to learn from you.
Monthly global Google search volume for

  1. Dog training
If you’ve ever considered starting an online dog training course, the numbers are strongly in your favor:
Expect to see those numbers continue to climb. A big portion of non-pet owners either want or plan to have a pet in the future, according to the American Pet Products Association.
Connie Cleveland, dog training expert and founder of The Obedience Road, has observed a big spike in new email subscribers lately. She’s been making a push to publish free content on Kajabi.
“Just because there are no competitions to go to, no classes to go to, we can band together,” she said. “We can watch videos, we can do lots of stuff at home to make sure that they're still having fun training their dog.”
Connie hopes that her free content will eventually steer people into joining her paid membership site, but she adds, “Right now, it's about how I can serve them in this current climate.”
Monthly global Google search volume for:

  1. Specialty photography
As the pace of life has slowed down, people are giving a closer look to their surroundings and documenting through photography.
They’re capturing new sights like mountains once shrouded by smog, coyotes wandering city streets, clear highways. Even banana bread fresh out of the oven has become photo-worthy.
People are discovering beauty around them and they’re eager to share. That widespread interest poses a huge opportunity for photography teachers who specialize in landscapes, food, wildlife, and more.
Michael Greenberg, a photographer who partners with other photographers to create online courses on Kajabi, believes in the power of teaching highly specialized courses such as landscape photography. One of his courses teaches night sky photography with an iPhone.
“‘How to take pictures with an iPhone’ is hard to sell. There’s too much competition in that field because it’s too broad,” Michael said. “No matter how many free tutorials online you can find, if you sell a high-quality product, there will always be someone who wants to purchase it.”
So far, landscape photography has proven to be a winning niche for Michael. One course had generated $105,00 from January to late April. His second course had earned $59,000 plus additional monthly subscriptions—in one month alone.
“Every single person photographs sunsets and sunrises,” Michael said. “Nature appeals to a much broader audience—women, men, young old.”
Monthly global Google search volume for:

  1. Homeschooling (any subject)
Long before stay-at-home orders, homeschooling in the US had been growing steadily since the 1990s, up to 3% of K-12 students nationwide.
Now, parents have been thrust into this new world and struggling to adapt: “How do I get my high-energy kid to focus?” “How can I keep all of my kids occupied while I work?”
If you’ve been in the trenches as a school teacher or educator of any kind, the time to start your online course for K-12 kids is now. Whether you teach science or woodworking, as long as you can make learning fun and interactive online, there’s a good chance a parent is looking for your expertise.
Jamie Heston, a homeschool consultant and board member of The Homeschool Association of California, advises online course creators to actively market their courses directly to parents by searching for homeschool communities on Facebook Groups and Google Groups.
“There’s a lot of interest, but also a lot of options right now,” Jamie said. “If your course is good, it will catch fire. It only takes a few homeschoolers enjoying your class to talk about it in these online communities.”
Jamie recommends that course creators categorize their courses not necessarily by age, but by ability. Learning with a multigenerational group can lead to a meaningful experience for everyone.
Melissa Norris teaches people how to raise, preserve, and cook their own organic food through her Kajabi site.
“People from all walks of life, age, and location—kids at home to grandparents—are eager to learn how to grow and preserve their own food,” she said. “ Many felt isolated in their desire to do so and creating a virtual space truly makes us connected.”
Monthly global Google search volume for homeschooling: 74,000

  1. Adventure sports
With the travel industry on hold and in-person training not an option, the adrenaline sports junkies are itching to spend time outdoors. They’re ready to learn techniques from the pros and spend hours practicing. Mountain bikers will always remember their first wheelie, and surfers will remember the first time they got barreled.
How amazing would it feel knowing you taught those techniques to someone, maybe even the younger version of you?
Monthly global Google search volume for:

  1. Feng Shui
In turbulent times, people seek new ways to achieve balance however they can. The philosophy of feng shui, which influences interior design and architecture in parts of Asia, is about creating balance, encouraging happiness, and clearing stagnant energy.
As people are spending countless hours at home these days, they’re seeking new ways to transform their surroundings into a sanctuary.
Amanda Collins, founder of the International School of Feng Shui, teaches the ancient art of Feng Shui and offers a master certification to become a Feng Shui consultant.
From her home in Ireland, which sits at the base of a mountain surrounded by rivers and forests, Amanda coaches students from all over the world using Kajabi. Her students are based in Egypt, Dubai, the US, and throughout Europe.
“Obviously, there’s something really special about teaching people in person,” said Amanda, who typically hosts in-person events twice a year. But her online courses allow her to be more accessible to students. People tell her they simply can’t get away, whether because they have young children or they can’t afford to travel, she explained.
“I feel like when I create something online, it can affect people infinitely because people can keep watching it, keep spreading it, and learning it,” she said. “I think that’s such a gift.”
Amanda has grown revenues from her online business by 25-30% every year.
Monthly global Google search volume for Feng Shui: 135,000

  1. Sewing, knitting
Traditional arts and crafts are making a big comeback among young adults who are most likely drawn to the tactile nature of sewing and knitting—an experience that smartphones and laptops can’t offer. Creative hobbyists have discovered the freedom that comes with stepping away from the noise, working with their hands, and getting into a flow.
As more digital natives continue to take over the crafting market, online crafting courses will become even more popular. According to the Association for Creative Industries, the majority of crafters (41%) are 18-34 years old and the next largest group (36%) are 35-54 years old.
Sarah Vedeler, chief designer at Meaning of Life Designs, teaches how to design quilts and embroidery appliqué on Kajabi.
“In the beginning, getting in front of the camera was terrifying! I would procrastinate for days,” she said. Sarah discovered a simple trick that helped her overcome procrastination: having her lighting boom arms permanently mounted on her wall, and having a camera set up on a tripod in the same exact place.
Each time, filming her course gets easier. And over the long run, her online business has grown more profitable.
“My first complete year using Kajabi had revenues almost double that of the previous year,” Sarah said.
Monthly global Google search volume for:

These 10 unconventional niches, along with real success stories, are a small sampling that prove you can succeed in almost any area. The internet connects us from across the globe. If you’re passionate and knowledgeable in a certain area, you’ll most likely find others want to learn from you.
No matter what you’re teaching, here’s one last tip from Shanna B. Tiayon, cofounder of Black Suburban Homestead: “Design your course to meet people where they are. It’s about education for self-empowerment!”
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2020.05.19 22:55 Kajabi We did some research to find 10 of the most unconventional online course/business ideas in high demand right now. We were pretty surprised by the results

Scroll down your Facebook feed, and you’ll most likely see friends experimenting with some new hobby or project you might’ve never expected. They’re baking artisan breads, building tool sheds, playing with watercolors. Who knew your network was full of eccentric characters?
It turns out being stuck at home brought out the creatives in many of us. On one hand, we’re figuring out how to be more self-sufficient out of necessity. On the other hand, we’ve become more curious about topics outside of our typical realm. Is it any wonder we’re experiencing an online learning boom?
Even before the pandemic, industry analysts had predicted the e-learning market to exceed $300 billion by 2025, pointing to course diversification as a competitive advantage. Now the market is even more hungry for online courses that are off the beaten path.
“Harvard University free courses” ranked as one of the most popular Google searches lately, but a recent deep dive into Google Trends also shows search increases in topics you might’ve never guessed: “fashion styling online course” was up 2,250%, “online art history course” was up 400% increase, and “online acrylic nail course” was up 120%.
If you’re thinking your expertise isn’t “mainstream” enough to earn profits, think again.
Of course, market demand is critical. But the more “under the radar” your course idea is, the easier it will be for you to stand out. Think about it: people are out there searching for the very topic you were born to teach.
We’ve scoured the internet, keyword search tools, and our very own Kajabi user database to handpick 10 unconventional niches in high demand right now. Hear it straight from Kajabi Heroes who have made it work for them:

  1. Homesteading
For city folks craving a slower paced, secluded lifestyle, the idea of living off the land might seem idyllic. They might picture Little House on the Prairie, the shabby chic farmhouse kitchens on Instagram, or the YouTube videos on growing vegetables at home.
They have a lot to learn to make the pioneer lifestyle a reality. If you’re knowledgeable about subsistence farming, living off the grid, or living self-sufficiently, people are searching for your course.
“There is a myth that only certain subjects and categories of content lend themselves to being taught online. Permaculture, an environmental science that is very much hands-on, tactile, and visceral, would seem to be a poor fit for virtual instruction,” said Mohamed Marei, cofounder of Accolade Consulting Group, a strategy firm that worked with renowned permaculturist Geoff Lawton to create “Discover Permaculture” on Kajabi.
“But our experience suggests that—with rigorous instructional design, a fanatical commitment to the learning experience of our community of students, a bit of ingenuity, the right mix of technical solutions, and above all, a fantastic team—almost any topic can be taught online."
Marei confirmed that each of the permaculture course launches have hit the seven-figure mark.
Monthly global Google search volumes

  1. Online dating and relationships
With the widespread isolation, more people are craving human connection—romance in particular. Match Group, the online dating giant that owns Tinder, Match.com, Hinge, and others, reported significant upticks in activity since the pandemic. At Tinder, the number of conversations, as well as the length of conversations, have spiked up to 30%, particularly among users under 30 years old.
What if they could use some help setting up their profile? What if they had no idea what to say once the conversation starts? Could you be the savior to awkward online daters?
Kate Mansfield, a dating and relationship coach in the UK, says she’s learned that selling a high-ticket course is “much easier” than a cheap one. The Kajabi Hero earns on average £40k per month.
“The common misconception is that spiritual and personal coaching offers are harder to sell because there isn’t a clear financial gain to the outcome,” which Kate added, “is absolutely not true.”
“If you can get people past their fear and coping strategies,” she said, “you can charge whatever you like, because ultimately true love is a priceless outcome.”
Monthly global Google search volume for:

  1. Personality coaching
In times of chaos, people are naturally inclined to turn inward. More people are taking the time to assess their relationships, careers, and lifestyles. What’s life going to be like after the hard times are over? Personality tests like the DISC assessment, Myers–Briggs, and the Enneagram are helping people who seek clarity.
If you’re a psychologist, life coach, or career counselor with expertise on personality-based assessments, your online course could help thousands of people going through major life transitions. Maybe they need a push in the right direction. And maybe your course is exactly what they need.
Monthly global Google search volume for

  1. Home improvement projects
The home improvement industry is booming right now. Suddenly, property owners are motivated to paint the walls, install new floors, and anything else to freshen up outdated looks. Those long lines you might’ve seen outside of Home Depot or Lowes are becoming more common. In a recent two-week period tracking social media posts about home renovation ideas, an Ameritrade article documented a significant spike doubling normal levels.
Starr Tingle, owner of Sanctuary Homes and Remodeling, says the demand for home remodeling services has definitely blown up lately.
“All these people are stuck in their home and they’re looking at it, thinking, ‘Why have I been putting up with this crappy 1980s bathroom?’ Or, ‘My kitchen’s not functional. It’s dark. It’s out of style,’” she said.
Starr is building an online course on Kajabi, focused on how to be your own general contractor managing a remodel.
“If they knew how to run the project themselves,” she explained, “they could literally save thousands.”
If you’re a master at managing remodels or skilled at any type of DIY home project, people are looking to learn from you.
Monthly global Google search volume for

  1. Dog training
If you’ve ever considered starting an online dog training course, the numbers are strongly in your favor:
Expect to see those numbers continue to climb. A big portion of non-pet owners either want or plan to have a pet in the future, according to the American Pet Products Association.
Connie Cleveland, dog training expert and founder of The Obedience Road, has observed a big spike in new email subscribers lately. She’s been making a push to publish free content on Kajabi.
“Just because there are no competitions to go to, no classes to go to, we can band together,” she said. “We can watch videos, we can do lots of stuff at home to make sure that they're still having fun training their dog.”
Connie hopes that her free content will eventually steer people into joining her paid membership site, but she adds, “Right now, it's about how I can serve them in this current climate.”
Monthly global Google search volume for:

  1. Specialty photography
As the pace of life has slowed down, people are giving a closer look to their surroundings and documenting through photography.
They’re capturing new sights like mountains once shrouded by smog, coyotes wandering city streets, clear highways. Even banana bread fresh out of the oven has become photo-worthy.
People are discovering beauty around them and they’re eager to share. That widespread interest poses a huge opportunity for photography teachers who specialize in landscapes, food, wildlife, and more.
Michael Greenberg, a photographer who partners with other photographers to create online courses on Kajabi, believes in the power of teaching highly specialized courses such as landscape photography. One of his courses teaches night sky photography with an iPhone.
“‘How to take pictures with an iPhone’ is hard to sell. There’s too much competition in that field because it’s too broad,” Michael said. “No matter how many free tutorials online you can find, if you sell a high-quality product, there will always be someone who wants to purchase it.”
So far, landscape photography has proven to be a winning niche for Michael. One course had generated $105,00 from January to late April. His second course had earned $59,000 plus additional monthly subscriptions—in one month alone.
“Every single person photographs sunsets and sunrises,” Michael said. “Nature appeals to a much broader audience—women, men, young old.”
Monthly global Google search volume for:

7.Homeschooling (any subject)
Long before stay-at-home orders, homeschooling in the US had been growing steadily since the 1990s, up to 3% of K-12 students nationwide.
Now, parents have been thrust into this new world and struggling to adapt: “How do I get my high-energy kid to focus?” “How can I keep all of my kids occupied while I work?”
If you’ve been in the trenches as a school teacher or educator of any kind, the time to start your online course for K-12 kids is now. Whether you teach science or woodworking, as long as you can make learning fun and interactive online, there’s a good chance a parent is looking for your expertise.
Jamie Heston, a homeschool consultant and board member of The Homeschool Association of California, advises online course creators to actively market their courses directly to parents by searching for homeschool communities on Facebook Groups and Google Groups.
“There’s a lot of interest, but also a lot of options right now,” Jamie said. “If your course is good, it will catch fire. It only takes a few homeschoolers enjoying your class to talk about it in these online communities.”
Jamie recommends that course creators categorize their courses not necessarily by age, but by ability. Learning with a multigenerational group can lead to a meaningful experience for everyone.
Melissa Norris teaches people how to raise, preserve, and cook their own organic food through her Kajabi site.
“People from all walks of life, age, and location—kids at home to grandparents—are eager to learn how to grow and preserve their own food,” she said. “ Many felt isolated in their desire to do so and creating a virtual space truly makes us connected.”
Monthly global Google search volume for homeschooling: 74,000

  1. Adventure sports
With the travel industry on hold and in-person training not an option, the adrenaline sports junkies are itching to spend time outdoors. They’re ready to learn techniques from the pros and spend hours practicing. Mountain bikers will always remember their first wheelie, and surfers will remember the first time they got barreled.
How amazing would it feel knowing you taught those techniques to someone, maybe even the younger version of you?
Monthly global Google search volume for:

  1. Feng Shui
In turbulent times, people seek new ways to achieve balance however they can. The philosophy of feng shui, which influences interior design and architecture in parts of Asia, is about creating balance, encouraging happiness, and clearing stagnant energy.
As people are spending countless hours at home these days, they’re seeking new ways to transform their surroundings into a sanctuary.
Amanda Collins, founder of the International School of Feng Shui, teaches the ancient art of Feng Shui and offers a master certification to become a Feng Shui consultant.
From her home in Ireland, which sits at the base of a mountain surrounded by rivers and forests, Amanda coaches students from all over the world using Kajabi. Her students are based in Egypt, Dubai, the US, and throughout Europe.
“Obviously, there’s something really special about teaching people in person,” said Amanda, who typically hosts in-person events twice a year. But her online courses allow her to be more accessible to students. People tell her they simply can’t get away, whether because they have young children or they can’t afford to travel, she explained.
“I feel like when I create something online, it can affect people infinitely because people can keep watching it, keep spreading it, and learning it,” she said. “I think that’s such a gift.”
Amanda has grown revenues from her online business by 25-30% every year.
Monthly global Google search volume for Feng Shui: 135,000

  1. Sewing, knitting
Traditional arts and crafts are making a big comeback among young adults who are most likely drawn to the tactile nature of sewing and knitting—an experience that smartphones and laptops can’t offer. Creative hobbyists have discovered the freedom that comes with stepping away from the noise, working with their hands, and getting into a flow.
As more digital natives continue to take over the crafting market, online crafting courses will become even more popular. According to the Association for Creative Industries, the majority of crafters (41%) are 18-34 years old and the next largest group (36%) are 35-54 years old.
Sarah Vedeler, chief designer at Meaning of Life Designs, teaches how to design quilts and embroidery appliqué on Kajabi.
“In the beginning, getting in front of the camera was terrifying! I would procrastinate for days,” she said. Sarah discovered a simple trick that helped her overcome procrastination: having her lighting boom arms permanently mounted on her wall, and having a camera set up on a tripod in the same exact place.
Each time, filming her course gets easier. And over the long run, her online business has grown more profitable.
“My first complete year using Kajabi had revenues almost double that of the previous year,” Sarah said.
Monthly global Google search volume for:
These 10 unconventional niches, along with real success stories, are a small sampling that prove you can succeed in almost any area. The internet connects us from across the globe. If you’re passionate and knowledgeable in a certain area, you’ll most likely find others want to learn from you.
No matter what you’re teaching, here’s one last tip from Shanna B. Tiayon, cofounder of Black Suburban Homestead: “Design your course to meet people where they are. It’s about education for self-empowerment!”
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2020.05.07 23:28 mialbowy A Promise Made

A Promise Kept

Back in university, I made a promise with my friend Athy that, if we were both single when we turned thirty, we’d just marry each other. To be honest, it was just a joke at first. She was so pretty and fun to be with, I thought the only way she’d ever be single was by choice. As for me, well, I was the romantic sort who assumed that, by thirty, I would basically be set for life: job, partner, house, dog.
However, the last decade hasn’t been so kind to me. I should mention at this point that I am a woman interested in women. More accurately, I seem to be a woman interested in straight women or women in committed relationships, and one tipsy time I was (unknowingly) interested in an effeminate man… who still rejected me. I’m awkward around new people, yet not any better around people I’ve known for a while either. Even my attempts at online dating ended after a few messages.
Anyway, back to my friend. Every year when we met up for my birthday, she reminded me of the promise. I was the younger one by a few months, so it would come into effect on my thirtieth rather than hers. What had once been a joke gradually become more real. For my twenty-fifth birthday, we spent a half-drunk evening planning a honeymoon around Europe; my twenty-seventh, after a particularly brutal string of rejections, I whined about those women and promised her I would be a faithful and doting wife; my twenty-ninth, we went house hunting for the day, just to see what kind of one bedroom apartments we could afford on a double income.
She’d been single all those years too. If I ever asked, she had a reason. At university, she was focusing on her studies and, as a fellow computer science student, she had her programming projects on the side. Then she was focused on her career, and then she was too busy making a game in her free time (and dragging me into it, not that I was unwilling), and then… I stopped asking, afraid that I would see her one day with an engagement ring on her finger.
With how she brought up the promise every year, it can’t be helped that I had a sliver of hope, right? I mean, I knew it was wrong to think of a friend that way, yet, by the end, I often joked to myself that it was her fault I went after straight women. A false hope, but it brought me comfort on the loneliest nights. I was glad to know that she would always be with me as a friend.
For my thirtieth birthday, we got together at my place after work and both downed a glass of wine before ordering pizza. I’d not even had one in the last year, my war against tummy fat perilous and liable to turn upon the loss of a single battle. However, she loved pizza, so we had pizza.
We ate a lot and drank some more, turned down the lights and sat close together on the couch as we made fun of the latest romcom, laughing so much we had to pause at least ten times because my stomach hurt. The promise was still on my mind, had been for at least the month before, but it was more out of curiosity than anything, wondering what she would say about it now. I thought she might suggest we find a two bedroom place and live together, or we would put up a jokey message online, changing our relationship status to married, or maybe she would start calling me wifey nicknames.
After the movie, she had me sit at the small dining table and sat down opposite me. Then she lit a candle and turned off the light and served the tiny cake she’d brought. Finally, she gave me my birthday present: a small, wrapped box.
“Ooh, what is it?” I asked, turning it around in my hands. It wasn’t heavy, but it felt sturdy for its size. I couldn’t think of anything to do with computers that matched, or any fashion accessory either, her gifts usually falling into one of those two categories. “Can I open it or do I have to guess?”
She softly shook her head, and she said, “You can open it.”
My gaze flickered back down to the box and I slipped my nail into the neat wrapping paper, prying off the sellotape. With that bit undone, I could tear off the paper and reveal the box inside. It looked pretty posh, certainly for jewellery, and I imagined there was a beautiful necklace or bracelet inside. Still, I could tell it wasn’t cheap and said, “Come on, you shouldn’t have. I’m happy with whatever you give me, so don’t waste your money.”
She sighed in response and loosely gestured at the box. Understanding what she wasn’t saying, I pried it open, and I sort of broke a little bit. It was a thin ring, silvery, with a small aquamarine on it.
I tried to remember when she had asked what my favourite gemstone was, but it must have been back at university. Honestly, I didn’t have one, yet at that time I saw one on the webpage she was showing me which reminded me of her eyes; that seemed as good a reason as any other to make it my favourite.
“Will you marry me?” she asked.
I was too shocked to notice back then, but her calm voice had quavered and, if I had looked closely, I would have seen the worry hiding behind her eyes. Instead, I fell victim to my insecurities. “If this is a joke, it’s not funny,” I said, head bowed as I didn’t trust myself not to cry.
“I’m not laughing,” she said, and she reached over, resting her hand on top of mine.
The next day, we went down to the register office and gave notice. Since we had to wait a month before we could get married, we went to look at apartments again—single bedroom ones—and we made an appointment at her bank to see what kind of mortgage we could get, and we went to furniture stores, looking at everything from plates to beds.
It sort of felt like I had imagined it: two friends deciding to live together. Yet, whenever I thought about it like that for too long, I remembered the ring on my finger.
At my age, months already went by quickly, but the day of our ceremony came up in the blink of an eye. Neither of us had wanted to make a big deal of it, so we just went back to the register office. For our two witnesses, she brought her older brother and I brought my cousin; they were thankfully relaxed about the situation.
When it came to the vows, well, I’m a romantic who has been working on my vows since I was like ten years old, and yet those vows were like they were written for someone else. Standing in front of her, I ended up saying whatever came to mind.
“I can’t put to words what you’ve been to me all the years I’ve known you. But, when I think back, it seems like every smile, every bit of laughter, every moment of happiness… has you in common,” I said as I stared into her soft eyes. At that point, I felt like I couldn’t say any more, choking up as the memories flooded back to me, only to settle when she gently took my hands in hers. Her touch reminded me of why we were there and, after a couple of breaths, I carried on. “Although I don’t know what the future will bring, it’s enough for me to know that you’ll be with me.”
They were, altogether, pretty simple vows, shallow even, but they were… honest. I felt like I could have said those words any time since I’d met her and meant them with all my heart. And even though I hadn’t exactly vowed anything, I knew she understood. She always understood me.
Looking into her eyes, I could see she knew that I truly did want to spend the rest of our lives together in whatever form our relationship took.
Her turn to speak, I felt my heart beat faster. “If I had to say what I love most about you, it’s that my home is by your side. The sense of peace and comfort and security you give me is what gives me the strength to try my best no matter what comes my way. Knowing that I will be by your side for the rest of our lives, I will try my best to give you peace and comfort and security, and to make my side your home.”
She said it all with practised ease, yet there was a noticeable strain in her voice. Upon finishing, she tried to smile, but her lips wavered and eyes teared up. Repaying the favour, I reached out and held her hands, lightly squeezing.
After giving us a moment to compose ourselves, the registrar asked us to exchange rings. She went first this time and presented me with the engagement ring—I wouldn’t let her go and buy another one when that ring was already perfect. When it came to my turn, well, a ring with a brown gemstone didn’t look great, so I went for a sapphire instead. It was a bit convoluted, but she’d first nicknamed me Saffron because of my very red hair, and that became Saffy, and then she started calling me Sappho after I came out to her (but she only called me that in private); since it’s close to sapphire and the colour went well with my aquamarine ring, I thought it was a good choice.
The way she looked at the gemstone when I slid the ring onto her finger, I knew she understood my thoughts. Of course she did.
From our research beforehand, only the vows and witnesses were actually required, but, when we spoke to the registrar at the start, we asked him if we could include the exchanging of rings, and we also asked him if we could include one more thing at the end.
“With their vows and rings exchanged, if the bride and bride would seal their oath,” the registrar said.
I looked at her, and my heart that had never settled after the start of the ceremony managed to beat even harder. Since our engagement, we hadn’t kissed, as if that was the line. It was stupid because I was sure that, before all this happened, if we got drunk and kissed, then we could have brushed it off and carried on being friends. Even if we’d slept together, I knew we would still always be friends.
But this wasn’t an accident. More than that, it wasn’t a mistake. I wanted to believe that.
Slowly, she reached up to cup my cheek. Her hand was cold. I hadn’t noticed earlier, I guessed because my hands were also cold; anxious as I was, my hands were definitely clammy. After touching me, a second passed and nothing happened. I almost burst into giggles. It was too funny to watch as her eyes fluttered closed and she stayed there, waiting for me to kiss her—she was the one who proposed to me!
Then I realised it was probably because she had proposed that she now waited for me: I needed to give her my answer.
I leant forwards, her face filling my vision, her hand a gentle pressure that never tried to push me away. At the last moment, I closed my eyes and kissed her. It was not my first time kissing someone, but it was the first time that kissing meant something to me—my first time kissing someone who meant something to me. A tame kiss, timid even, which didn’t even last a full second, yet I knew that we’d crossed the line.
While I pulled back, I watched her eyelashes flutter as she opened her eyes, and saw the blush dying her cheeks, and how her lips were slightly parted. I’d always known she was pretty, but I’d never seen her look so beautiful.
We didn’t have long to cherish the moment. The registrar handed us our marriage certificate and our witnesses were all too eager to pull us away for questioning, their cooperation to be repaid with answers. I wasn’t privy to what she and her brother spoke about, but my cousin wanted to know if I would tell my parents and things like that. Unfortunately, I didn’t have any real answers, so I got an earful until Athy rescued me.
On the bus ride back to her flat, we sat in silence with our hands entwined. As our vows had said, that was enough for us.
Things didn’t really change, except when they did, which I know is a weird thing to say. What I mean is that we acted and spoke like we always had, but now we really snuggled together when we sat together on the couch, and we would hold hands when walking together outside. We didn’t kiss again, and we still lived in our own flats while we waited for the mortgage to go through; it didn’t seem worth it for me to move into her flat (or vice versa) and then move to the new place when it should only be a month. So it was a state of being similar but not quite the same.
However slowly we moved, the world didn’t wait. I had told my cousin it wasn’t exactly a secret, and Athy seemed to have told her brother similarly, soon both of us bombarded by our respective parents. That was fair enough, likely few parents happy to hear they’d missed their daughter’s wedding.
In my case, even though I’d been out for a long time, my parents didn’t know. That was mostly because I’d never managed to start a relationship, so it was like, “Can I really call myself lesbian?” I mean, to put it lightly, it was more to do with me not having the best relationship with them. I had always been enough of a disappointment without also being a lesbian, so it seemed better for them to just think I was incapable of getting a husband—at least until I was in a serious relationship. Ignorance is bliss.
On the other side of matters, I’d known her family semi-well for as long as I’d known her. Her older brother was also in the computer sector, albeit IT, so we had common things to talk about, and they were otherwise close, so he’d joined us for dinner before (well, I guess it was more like I’d joined them for dinner). As her university housemate for two years, I had met her parents back then and they had invited me along for dinner whenever they visited. I’d seen them a few times since university, about once a year. They seemed nice and treated me well.
But with how she looked, I thought they weren’t exactly congratulating her either. I didn’t want to pry because I didn’t want to tell her what my parents were saying.
Coming to a mutual agreement on the matter, we went to visit her parents on the weekend, holding hands the whole taxi ride there. The closer we got, the harder she squeezed my hand. We let go of each other’s hand when we knocked on the door, and her mother welcomed us in, yet I could tell it was a strained welcome. Her father was already sitting at the table, and he put his phone down as we walked over. Our chairs had been spaced apart, but I moved mine closer as we sat down.
Her mother asked us if we wanted anything to drink, but we both declined; she excused herself for a cup of water anyway and left us in silence for half a minute or so. With her back, I felt the mood start to shift, the fake smile melting away.
“We know you two have been close for a long time, but you didn’t even tell us you were dating and we missed our daughter’s marriage—please imagine how humiliating that is for us,” her mother said.
It didn’t stop there, though, one sentence after another coming, and I felt an unease growing in the pit of my stomach. Athy offered quiet sorries. By the tone alone, I knew to reach out to her under the table and hold her hand. Her mother kept replying by saying she didn’t want an apology, yet she kept talking in that manner.
Eventually, my feelings crystallised, and I realised what was agitating me. I tried to interrupt by saying, “Um, if I—” only to be cut off by her father.
“We’re talking to our daughter,” he said sternly, and then gestured for her mother to continue.
Rather than silence me, that sort of amplified my feelings, making them sharp enough to cut through the awkwardness that usually stifled me. My voice tinged with righteous anger, I said, “No, you’re talking to my wife, and unless you talk to her with respect, we’ll be leaving.”
I couldn’t say any more than that, unwilling to trust my voice to maintain that kind of brave tone. However, for her sake, I squarely met her father’s stare and didn’t give an inch. My whole body tensed, instinctually trying to shy away and even apologise, yet I fought it, desperately with all my might.
After a few seconds, she spoke quietly but with a certain conviction. “Whatever you think, whether or not you approve, we are married. And that’s something between me and Saffy. We’re not joining our families together or anything like that, we’re just doing what makes us happy.”
Her words resonated with the feelings I had for her, a sense of comfort replacing the knot of anxiety. The uncertainty of the situation became almost meaningless as I knew without a shadow of a doubt that we would eventually walk out of there and carry on our lives together.
Before anything else could be said, the doorbell rang. Her mother glanced at her father and then excused herself.
“We’re not late, are we?” her brother loudly said from the doorway. I turned to look and his wife and children were with him—a young girl about six and a boy about four. Although I’d never met them, he and Athy had told me a lot about them.
She stood up to greet them, so I did too, and I let go of her hand only for her to grab it again. I looked at her to make sure, missing that her niece ran over.
“Aunty Athy!” she said, hugging her around the waist, and then she turned to me. “Are you really Aunty Saffy? Daddy told me you got married and he showed me a picture, but why wasn’t I there? Jamie went to her uncle’s wedding and even got to be a flower girl.”
I again looked at Athy, this time entirely unsure what to say or do, yet all she did was smile and softly nod. So I looked back at her niece—our niece—and I smiled and nodded. “We didn’t have a wedding, but we can still have a party and get you a pretty dress—is that okay?”
She grinned and gave me a hug too. “Yeah!” she said.
With the children around, her parents didn’t say anything else on the matter. My new niece is very much a tomboy princess, long hair often full of leaves and twigs, and my new nephew is her biggest fan, often stuck in bushes or up trees as he tries to keep up with her. And for whatever reason, she kept dragging me to play. I thought it was just me being a novelty as someone knew, but Athy later told me that her favourite movie was Brave and I had a bit of a Merida look—kind of curly red hair. Her brother’s wife was nice and I felt like she didn’t have any problems with our marriage, either with how sudden it was or it being a same-sex marriage, the way she talked with me like old friends who hadn’t seen each other in a long time. Not to mention that she actually congratulated us, something the parents hadn’t done at any point.
We excused ourselves after an hour. I was thoroughly exhausted, and she seemed to be too. However, I couldn’t stop thinking, thoughts new and old swirling around. When the taxi dropped us off at her flat, I walked up to the front door with her. She put the key in and turned it, and she stepped inside, and then she noticed I hadn’t followed, looking at me with a questioning gaze.
“Can I stay over tonight?” I asked.
Some colour came to her cheeks, muted from the makeup she’d put on for the visit, and her hands came together to fidget. Yet she didn’t look away from me. “Okay,” she quietly said.
To me, our engagement had been a surprise, but she had gone out and picked a ring and mustered the courage to ask that special question. Her vows had sounded like they were written with me in mind. And after what happened with her parents, I thought she probably felt insecure.
So I stayed with her through the afternoon, went out with her for a nice meal. In the evening, I had a shower and changed into a spare pair of her pyjamas, snuggling with her on the couch until we were both nodding off. Then we both squeezed into her single bed, unable to not touch each other. Despite it being hot and cramped, I didn’t feel restless, and I held her hand.
“G’night,” I said; leaning over, I gave her a little kiss.
“Goodnight,” she murmured, squeezing my hand.
I wanted to stay the next night as well, but my work clothes were at my flat and she said we should wait for our new apartment. Still, I called her in the evening to say that single word, and I kissed (just in front of) my phone, which she reciprocated.
The week felt so much longer. I spent my free time when travelling to and from work and in my breaks thinking about her. The momentum behind a decade-long friendship wasn’t easy to change, and I still didn’t know what she wanted out of this new relationship. My feelings hadn’t really changed. Whether we were lovers or if we only shared goodnight kisses, I could build my happiness around her. I did want more, but I wasn’t going to take more than a small step each time, carefully finding the boundaries of this murky relationship. There was no need to rush.
Friday evening, I picked up some clothes from my flat and then went to hers. The next day, we went to a restaurant for lunch… to meet my parents. I’d been anxious all morning, told her a hundred times we didn’t have to, but she insisted that we make things clear for them, and that she would be there for me.
Despite arriving ten minutes late (on purpose) we still got there a good five minutes before my parents. They were neatly dressed, their affluence thick in the air. I could barely breathe. We weren’t exactly in a crop top and jeans ourselves, yet any onlookers would have thought my parents sat at the wrong table. Though, that had as much to do with how they looked at me as it did with how we were dressed.
None of us spoke until the waiter came over for our order, and Athy ordered for me as if she knew I couldn’t speak. There was a knot in my stomach, echoes of distant memories bouncing around my head. I couldn’t focus well, any thoughts interrupted by my body complaining, everything sounding a bit muffled, everything looking a bit distant, even my hands feeling rubbery, clumsy, worrying me that I wouldn’t be able to hold the cutlery.
As if they were waiting for me to reach this point, my father finally spoke. “So this is the woman you… married.”
“Yes,” I said, forcing the word out.
“What was that? I didn’t hear you,” he said coldly, his mouth resting in something like a diluted snarl, the top lip ever so slightly pulled up.
I swallowed the lump in my throat, yet it didn’t budge. My every muscle tensed, ready to flinch. In my mind, I played over how the conversation from here would go, how it had gone so many times before, the way he gradually raised his voice, asking me if I was dumb, or hit the table when I tried to speak, scaring the words away. The last time, he’d even loudly asked me if I was drunk, and I’d felt the judging stares of everyone in the restaurant. Yet I didn’t dare invite my parents to my flat or visit them at home.
Trapped in the twilight of past and present, I could only lower my head and hope I wouldn’t cry. And I blamed myself. If I’d told her the truth, she wouldn’t have made us come. I didn’t want to be humiliated in front of her like this, but I’d hoped that it would be different. I hoped that they wouldn’t treat me like that in front of someone else, or that they would have realised I hadn’t met with them in years because of how they treated me.
And then I realised that they might treat her like that.
I pushed through everything and clearly said, “This is my wife, Athy.”
For a moment, I thought he would still insist he couldn’t hear me. However, he simply grunted, and it became my mother’s turn to twist the knife. “Are you keeping her as a pet, then? She keep the place clean and cook you dinners? Goodness knows how desperate you are, I suppose anything would do.”
What I hated most about my parents was that, horrible as they were, they were happy. They loved each other and had friends and hobbies and money and slept easily night after night. The only thing they didn’t have was an obedient daughter married to a doctor or a lawyer, and even then they were all too happy to play the victim to their friends and indulge in their sympathy. Maybe they had once loved me, back when I was a child and still conformed to what they wanted, but I could only remember struggling through my adolescence.
I knew they didn’t love me, that the sole reason they came was because I had some use to them. At that moment, the reason was to torment me, to find pleasure in punishing me for not being the daughter they wanted me to be.
But I don’t think they could ever understand just how successful they were being. Even though my mother degraded Athy like that, I was too broken to say anything, and I broke all the more for saying nothing. My silence compounded just how much I had failed her. Never mind as my wife, as my best friend for a decade, I shouldn’t have been able to let anyone talk about her like that, to reduce her to a thing, and yet whatever righteous anger I might have been able to summon was suffocated by the layers of fear and shame wrapped around my childish heart. Lost, I couldn’t see, couldn’t hear, the world reduced to the painful thumping in my chest, violent and restrained.
Yet, when she spoke, as if her voice came from inside the walls surrounding me, I clearly heard her. “Since Saffy never talked about you, I thought you were terrible parents, but you’re both utterly insane. It’s no wonder she struggled to get on with other people. Really, I’ve stepped in dogshit with better personality.”
In the following silence, I realised it wasn’t just our table that was silent. I looked up, and my parents both had expressions I’d never seen before, too alien for me to even try and recognise.
As long as it felt, I think it was only a few seconds, my parents surely not the type to be so easily cowed. My father turned to me, his eyes more intense than I’d ever seen, and he asked me in a loud whisper, “Are you really going to let this bitch talk to us like that?”
I looked back at him, and I was confused. I was really, really confused. What did he think I would do? Like, did he want me to make her apologise? I knew they lived in their own, twisted reality, but did they really think I cared about them more than her? Or was I supposed to be afraid of them?
Because I was so focused on that, it was like I forgot that I was supposed to stutter and mumble, so I loudly said, “Yes, I am.” I noticed then that other people were looking at us, some with their phones (not so) subtly out, and… it didn’t bother me. Even if they were judging me, the only person there I cared about was on my side.
No doubt worried a fight would start, the waiter served our drinks then; I had to praise his composure, able to say, “Enjoy,” with a straight face.
Of course, my parents were far from finished. However, whenever they started speaking, Athy would hold my hand under the table, and she would simply ignore them and talk to me; I had to listen when she spoke, my brain wired to hear her voice. We’ve been close for so long, I can pick her voice out on a crowded train station, and in fact I have some four times? Maybe five? Anyway, she kept doing that, and I couldn’t really hear my parents any more. I answered her questions and asked my own, smiling, laughing. My neck started to hurt from turning to face her, so I shuffled my chair round a bit.
Still, my mother knocked over a glass of wine and spilt it on Athy’s dress, but Athy laughed it off and didn’t even leave the table. She had me dab at the stain, which so happened to be around her upper thigh, and someone wolf-whistled at us for it. Rather than upset or annoyed by that, I had to giggle. I mean, it must have looked very suggestive, right? Me vigorously rubbing another woman’s thigh. With that in mind, I left her to finish drying it herself.
I don’t really know what my parents did after that. With people watching, I guess they couldn’t be loud enough to get my attention. Well, our food arrived and she kept having me try hers, and so I had her try mine as well, constantly on the verge of giggling as we must have looked so silly feeding each other. We’re thirty-year-old women, not teens. When we finished, she ordered us dessert and coffee; I hadn’t noticed how much I’d drunk, but maybe that was why I felt so giggly. Somewhat sobered, I remember clearly how, at the end of the meal, she helped me stand up and then said to the waiter, “My parents-in-law will be paying,” and tugged me out.
In summary: she called them worse than dogshit, ignored them for half an hour while flirting with their daughter, and then had them pay for dinner.
I wasn’t exactly happy on the way home. I mean, I was happy, but it was more a feeling of contentedness. It’s like, having seen how she treated them, I realised that I really had loved them all this time in the way that hatred is still a form of love. Maybe it’s better to say that you can hate someone you love. There’s not really a good way to say it, but I guess an example is that I thought I had to answer the phone if they rang me; I realised then that I could block their number.
Otherwise, she didn’t apologise for insisting on the meeting, and I didn’t want her to. I didn’t thank her for what she did, and I didn’t think she wanted me to. It’s probably strange, but, when it comes to us, we only apologise or thank each other over small things—if we’re late or bump the table, or if we’re given a cup of tea. If I broke her laptop, of course I would be sorry and pay her to replace it, that’s obvious. And when she buys me an expensive present, I chide her for wasting her money, but of course I cherish it, it just goes without saying.
We got back to her flat midafternoon. I was as tired as after visiting her parents the last weekend, but I also felt a lot better without the threat of my parents hanging over me.
Once we’d taken off our shoes and hung up our purses, I pinched her dress and tugged, making her turn towards me, and then I hugged her. More than that, I embraced her. She was a little cold, not really the best weather to go out in only a dress, but I felt her cheek heat up against mine, so I snuggled my chin between her shoulder and neck. Her arms lightly held me at first, yet my show of affection made her pull me close, almost painful. My breath must have tickled her, because she shivered after I let out a long sigh.
I relaxed my hold on her, and she did the same, the two of us slowly coming apart. Yet, when I could see her face, I went in closer again and kissed her. This time, it wasn’t just a peck. I didn’t really know what I was doing, sort of trying to pinch her top lip with both of mine, and I gently sucked on her lip, which made bizarre and wet sounds that were almost, but not quite, erotic.
We had a long way to go.
Moving on, I kissed along her jawline, coming all the way to her earlobe. And I stopped there, pulling her into a hug as I whispered, “I love you.”
We had a long way to go, and a lifetime together to get there.
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2020.05.01 12:53 Reddit_Books New Releases for May 2020

New Releases for May 2020

Data courtesy http://www.bookreporter.com
For more discussion, see the monthly New Releases post.
Title Author ReleaseDate
Audiobook
The Girl Who Lived Twice David Lagercrantz May 5, 2020
Autobiography
Dirt Bill Buford May 5, 2020
Hollywood Park Mikel Jollett May 5, 2020
Dad's Maybe Book Tim O'Brien May 12, 2020
The Shapeless Unease Samantha Harvey May 12, 2020
Here We Are Benjamin Taylor May 19, 2020
Stray Stephanie Danler May 19, 2020
Biography
James Monroe Tim McGrath May 5, 2020
More Than Love Natasha Gregson Wagner May 5, 2020
Lou Gehrig Lou Gehrig May 12, 2020
Fantasy
Shakespeare for Squirrels Christopher Moore May 12, 2020
Gather the Fortunes Bryan Camp May 19, 2020
Fiction
The Islanders Meg Mitchell Moore May 5, 2020
All Adults Here Emma Straub May 5, 2020
Shiner Amy Jo Burns May 5, 2020
Summer Longing Jamie Brenner May 5, 2020
The Index of Self-Destructive Acts Christopher R. Beha May 5, 2020
The Motion of the Body Through Space Lionel Shriver May 5, 2020
The Poison Flood Jordan Farmer May 5, 2020
My Kind of People Lisa Duffy May 12, 2020
The Summer Set Aimee Agresti May 12, 2020
A Children's Bible Lydia Millet May 12, 2020
Daughters of Smoke and Fire Ava Homa May 12, 2020
I'd Give Anything Marisa de los Santos May 12, 2020
Quotients Tracy O'Neill May 12, 2020
Sorry for Your Trouble Richard Ford May 12, 2020
On Ocean Boulevard Mary Alice Monroe May 19, 2020
The Silence Susan Allott May 19, 2020
A Week at the Shore Barbara Delinsky May 19, 2020
Black Flag David Ricciardi May 19, 2020
Brave Girl, Quiet Girl Catherine Ryan Hyde May 19, 2020
Wrath of Poseidon Clive Cussler May 26, 2020
All My Mother's Lovers Ilana Masad May 26, 2020
The Death of Jesus J.M. Coetzee May 26, 2020
Don't Turn Around Jessica Barry June 16, 2020
Historical Fiction
Old Lovegood Girls Gail Godwin May 5, 2020
Summer Darlings Brooke Lea Foster May 5, 2020
The Book of V. Anna Solomon May 5, 2020
The Imperfects Amy Meyerson May 5, 2020
The King’s Evil Andrew Taylor May 5, 2020
The Paris Hours Alex George May 5, 2020
Book of the Little Axe Lauren Francis-Sharma May 12, 2020
Katheryn Howard, the Scandalous Queen Alison Weir May 12, 2020
Rodham Curtis Sittenfeld May 19, 2020
To Wake the Giant Jeff Shaara May 19, 2020
The Jane Austen Society Natalie Jenner May 26, 2020
In the Lion's Den Barbara Taylor Bradford May 26, 2020
The City of Tears Kate Mosse May 26, 2020
History
The Wild Bunch W.K. Stratton May 5, 2020
The Hour of Fate Susan Berfield May 5, 2020
The Lincoln Conspiracy Brad Meltzer May 5, 2020
24 Willie Mays May 12, 2020
Mystery
The 20th Victim James Patterson May 4, 2020
This Side of Night J. Todd Scott May 5, 2020
Big Summer Jennifer Weiner May 5, 2020
Ghosts of Harvard Francesca Serritella May 5, 2020
Catherine House Elisabeth Thomas May 12, 2020
My Mother's House Francesca Momplaisir May 12, 2020
The Last Trial Scott Turow May 12, 2020
This Is How I Lied Heather Gudenkauf May 12, 2020
Street Music Timothy Hallinan May 14, 2020
Happy & You Know It Laura Hankin May 19, 2020
These Women Ivy Pochoda May 19, 2020
Furmidable Foes Rita Mae Brown May 19, 2020
The Good Stranger Dete Meserve May 19, 2020
Fair Warning Michael Connelly May 26, 2020
Murder, She Wrote Jessica Fletcher May 26, 2020
Nonfiction
Funny Weather Olivia Laing May 12, 2020
Team of Five Kate Andersen Brower May 19, 2020
Romance
Family for Beginners Sarah Morgan May 5, 2020
Surfside Sisters Nancy Thayer May 5, 2020
Tiny Imperfections Alli Frank May 5, 2020
Hello, Summer Mary Kay Andrews May 5, 2020
Beach Read Emily Henry May 19, 2020
The Friendship List Susan Mallery May 26, 2020
Hideaway Nora Roberts May 26, 2020
Science Fiction
Little Eyes Samanta Schweblin May 5, 2020
Network Effect Martha Wells May 5, 2020
Short Stories
A Registry of My Passage upon the Earth Daniel Mason May 5, 2020
Thriller
A Good Marriage Kimberly McCreight May 5, 2020
Hard Cash Valley Brian Panowich May 5, 2020
The Paladin David Ignatius May 5, 2020
The Goodbye Man Jeffery Deaver May 12, 2020
Kill the King Sandrone Dazieri May 19, 2020
The Nemesis Manifesto Eric Van Lustbader May 19, 2020
The Sunday Girl Pip Drysdale May 19, 2020
The Wife Stalker Liv Constantine May 19, 2020
Unknown
Fight Like a Mother Shannon Watts May 5, 2020
Golf's Holy War Brett Cyrgalis May 5, 2020
Robert B. Parker's Grudge Match Mike Lupica May 5, 2020
How to Bury Your Brother Lindsey Rogers Cook May 12, 2020
Rigged D. P. Lyle May 19, 2020
Bombshell Stuart Woods May 26, 2020
Inland Tea Obreht May 26, 2020
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2020.05.01 02:20 RainbowTigerCat Rory Appreciation Thread

People tend to hate on Rory a lot, and it can be understandable why- she has made great mistakes, but people tend to forget all of the great things about her.
(Disclaimer: all of the positives listed below were shown 100% of the time- but no one is perfect. Nobody can be sweet and kind and hard working and all 24/7. It’s unfair to expect somebody to.)
-She was a great friend to Laine and Paris (and others)
To Laine, she let her hide things at her house, let her band practice in her garage, snuck out of her house to buy black hair dye to undo the purple, helped with the Kim weddings, got those CD’s for her when she was grounded and couldn’t leave the house, and more.
To Paris, she always forgave her for all of the crap she put her through, helped her get ready for her date with Tristan and Jamie, became her Vice President at Chilton to help her win even though she didn’t want to, supported her after she got rejected from Harvard, genuinely tried to be her friend by inviting her to sleep over, invited her to the Bracebridge dinner, and more.
And to Lucy, she was so apologetic to her after the whole Marty situation which wasn’t even really her fault.
-She put up with lots of crap
She did lots of things she didn’t want to do for her grandparents- like the golfing with her grandfather in season 1, the coming out party, the Yale alum party with all boys, and more. She didn’t hold a grudge against her father even though he was pretty absent in her life for the most part. Even after Paris treated her horribly (like she tried to impeach her at Chilton, attacked her during fencing, and more), she always forgave her.
-She was a hard worker
She joined Chilton even though she would be behind since it was mid year. She studied for hours and hours, and practically killed herself during finals week. She spent so much time working on extracurriculars (once she realized their importance) and special stuff outside of school, like the Chilton speech contest. During her time at the Daily News, she took the extra mile to do well on her articles- on the Life and Death Brigade one, she dug so deep and even went to the overnight event. With that article with Logan, she had literal binders full of research. She bailed the Daily News out when Paris was editor and the paper wasn’t gonna come out.
-She helped others and did kind things for others
She helped out in town events. She helped Jess study for Luke. She planned that huge birthday party for Lorelai with the giant pizza. She (and her mother) helped Luke at the diner when he couldn’t cook (I think when his uncle died?). She stuck up for Logan and when he was in the hospital, she got Mitchum to actually visit him and stood up to him despite his importance. After Lorelei’s breakup with Luke, Rory came all the way from Yale to support her and make sure she was okay.
-She was just overall a great student
She was annoyingly on time (like at Yale during freshman year when she went to class and nobody was there), was pleasant and well behaved in class, and there was even that time when she first came to Yale she memorized the whole schedule (just showing her dedication).
ETA: She was a good influence on Jess and showed him that he was smart and capable and if it weren’t for her, Jess may not have written that book and wouldn’t have been as successful (he said it himself he couldn’t have done it without her).
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2020.04.15 21:27 SesshamoNekodearuzo Trump’s Task Force to Reopen U.S. Becomes a Marathon of Phone Calls

President Donald Trump for now has abandoned plans to create a new task force to help revive the nation’s economy after the coronavirus outbreak, according to two people familiar with the matter, and instead is holding a marathon series of calls on Wednesday with U.S. business leaders.
As the outbreak shows signs of plateauing in the country, corporate executives are being asked to advise Trump on how to resume something approaching normal business and social life. Trump was scheduled to speak with more than 200 leaders from nearly every corner of the U.S. economy in four calls.
Several of the companies and other participants said they found out they were invited only after Trump announced their names in a Rose Garden news conference on Tuesday or from a subsequent White House statement. They said they didn’t know the format or the purpose of the calls, and some expressed doubt the exercise would be productive.
The calls began Wednesday morning in Washington. The White House said the discussions would include chief executive officers of some of the country’s largest and most prominent companies, including Tim Cook of Apple Inc., Doug McMillon of Walmart Inc. and Jamie Dimon of JP Morgan Chase & Co.
In the call with financial services leaders, executives expressed the need for more virus testing so people feel comfortable returning to work, and said they’re trying to secure their own diagnostic capabilities, a person familiar with the matter said. No specific reopening date was discussed. The content of the call was reported earlier by the Wall Street Journal.
Planning for the calls appeared to be improvisational. People familiar with the matter said that multiple senior aides and White House offices were involved -- particularly Trump’s son-in-law Jared Kushner and his associates. Trump himself pushed to expand participation, expressing a desire for titans of industry to advise him, one of the people said.
White House officials were unable to describe how the various industry groups would operate beyond Wednesday’s conference calls. They said the industry group members were e-mailed an invitation Tuesday afternoon.

‘Very Great’ Doctors

The format is much different than Trump initially described last week, when he said he would create a council of “very great” doctors and business people to advise him. The impression was a group akin to the coronavirus task force already guiding the administration’s public health strategy.
Outside allies began to submit names of a potential network of advisers in mid-March and later there were discussions inside the White House about forming a council that included top administration officials, including Kushner and Treasury Secretary Steven Mnuchin, among others.
Plans for a second, smaller task force that includes Trump administration officials are no longer on the table, at least for now, according to the two people who described the White House’s thinking.
While the sheer size and diversity of the new group will allow Trump to hear a broad range of opinions, it likely won’t provide an environment for in-depth debate on pressing questions such as whether the U.S. has sufficient testing capacity for the virus or which sectors of the economy should be among the first to go back to work.

‘Give Us Some Ideas’

Even more executives could nonetheless be added to the groups in the future, according to two people familiar with the plans.
“They’re going to give us some ideas,” Trump said Tuesday at a Rose Garden news conference, introducing the panels that the White House called the “Great American Economic Revival Industry Groups.”
Trump said last week the re-opening group he envisioned would be “bipartisan.” While the corporate executives have varying political leanings -- Jeff Bezos, the Amazon Inc. CEO who has been a Trump foil for years, is among them -- the calls include academics from conservative research groups with ties to the White House, such as the American Enterprise Institute and Heritage Foundation.
No similar Democratic groups or lawmakers will participate.
Many of the executives also are close to Trump, including New England Patriots owner Robert Kraft, Citadel LLC’s Ken Griffin and Stephen Schwarzman of Blackstone Group Inc. The group also includes a few people who have criticized Trump in the past, such as Dallas Mavericks owner Mark Cuban and former Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice.

‘Moving Target’

“This is such a moving target that I think the biggest mistake we can make is rush to a decision, but I’m going to help him in every way I can, whatever he needs me to do,” Cuban said on Fox News on Wednesday.
Trump’s list includes “thought leaders” such as Stephen Moore, who advised his campaign in 2016 and now serves as a visiting fellow at the Heritage Foundation. Moore told Fox Business Network he didn’t have details about “how this task force is going to operate,” but that he’ll lobby for a quick reopening.
“The top priority right now is we have got to get the economy up and running hopefully next week, at the latest of May 1, because what our economic projections are showing is that if you keep this economy shut down into June, the economic calamity is unthinkable,” he told Fox Business Network on Tuesday.
Trump said that Richard Trumka, president of the AFL-CIO labor union, would be there. Trumka was not asked to join ahead of the White House announcement, his spokeswoman said. “He’ll be on the call to see if it’s a serious effort,” spokeswoman Carolyn Bobb said.
One CEO was contacted by the White House on Wednesday morning to participate on a call with the president, according to one person at the firm. The company expressed misgivings about participating, but also believed that backing out might prompt an angry response from Trump.
Another company and person invited to participate expressed concerns that the calls would not be a productive way to offer advice and influence policy decisions.

Last Minute Confusion

One person who works at a bank invited to the call said multiple CEOs were contacted at the last minute and there was confusion as to why the White House tried to wrangle banking executives onto a conference call during earnings season.
All requested anonymity to describe internal thinking.
The White House released its list of participants on Tuesday evening. “These bipartisan groups of American leaders will work together with the White House to chart the path forward toward a future of unparalleled American prosperity,” the White House said in a statement, without elaborating on how they may shape the administration’s policies.
In addition to Dimon, Trump’s list of calls includes a slate of executives from Wall Street: Brian Moynihan of Bank of America Corp.; David Solomon of Goldman Sachs Group Inc.; James Gorman of Morgan Stanley; Michael Corbat of Citigroup Inc.; and Charles Scharf of Wells Fargo & Co.
Also set to be on the calls: Darren Woods of Exxon Mobil Corp.; Satya Nadella of Microsoft Corp.; John Malone of Liberty Media Corp.; Fred Smith of FedEx Corp.; Oscar Munoz of United Airlines Inc.; Juan Luciano of Archer-Daniels-Midland Co.; David MacLennan of Cargill Inc.; Marillyn Hewson of Lockheed Martin Corp.; Kathy Warden of Northrop Grumman Corp.; and James Quincey of Coca-Cola Co.
Trump has been eager to end economy-stifling social-distancing measures to curb the outbreak almost as soon as he announced them, though last month he extended Centers for Disease Control and Prevention recommendations until April 30 on the advice of government health experts.

‘At Best Scatter Shot’

Many of those same health officials have cautioned that lifting restrictions on May 1 may be too soon. But Trump’s economic advisers have intensified their efforts to persuade the president that the country should reopen to stave off economic ruin.
“We think that some of the governors will be in really good shape to open up even sooner than” the end up of April, Trump said Tuesday. “Others are going to have to take a longer period of time.”
Even as Trump pressed ahead, Senate Democrats said on Wednesday they will be demanding a broad-based system of testing for the virus as part of any reopening plans.
Minority Leader Chuck Schumer and his leadership team said a “Phase Four” of economic stimulus must include a $30 billion plan they’re drafting that would provide testing throughout the nation. That package is expected to be a hefty follow-on package that supplements the $2.2 trillion stimulus that cleared Congress last month.
“The administration is at best scatter shot and at worst chaotic when it comes to testing,” Schumer told reporters on a conference call.
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